I got on a tidying kick this weekend, and I asked Hubby what the future held for an old Mac something he'd bought several years ago and only used once. Its primary purpose in life these days is cat perch. I could really use the shelf space.

Hubby: "I'm going to turn it into a server."

No, he isn't. It's an old Mac, we run a Windows network, neither of us knows that much about Macs, and when he has the energy he uses it for things he really cares about. But, delicate male egos being what they are, if I tell him these things he feels like I'm telling him that he'll never recover fully and be the man he thinks he should be. And he's only 48 years old dammit.

Sorry, not going there, never mind.

It's very hard to de-clutter when all the stuff is being used as a defiant "fuck you!" to a universe that wants to bring you down. I know, attainable goals, if he concentrates on a few things that actually have a shot of being accomplished, it all won't be hanging over his head, accusing him and reminding him of what he can't do anymore. But the man's been told on multiple occasions that he'd never walk again etc., and he always comes back, plus he's been dead three or four times and has come back from *that*. Living with the lesser-heroic is probably less dramatic.

The above is less a search for advice and more a seasonal rant.

At least the sun's out.

It's very hard to de-clutter when all the stuff is being used as a defiant "fuck you!" to a universe that wants to bring you down.

I get the "fuck you," though, on a much lesser scale. It's why I haven't thrown out clothes that are at least 2 sizes too small, even though, if they *did* fit, I wouldn't wear them because they're out of style or just don't suit me. If I get rid of them, I'm admitting that I'll never fit into them again.

I know that's super-duper small potatoes compared to Mr. Connie, but I *do* get it, in my way.

The above is less a search for advice and more a seasonal rant.

I have no advice, just an I Get It.

My mantra is "When I lose weight, I'll buy new clothes as a treat."

But the man's been told on multiple occasions that he'd never walk again etc., and he always comes back, plus he's been dead three or four times and has come back from *that*.

The hell? Who does he think he is, Buffy ?

My mantra is "When I lose weight, I'll buy new clothes as a treat."

Ah, I do this, too. Overall, it leads to a pretty shabby wardrobe.

I know that's super-duper small potatoes compared to Mr. Connie, but I *do* get it, in my way.

If anyone knows, you do, love. We're waiting to see if shaving will take care of the current blown disc or if it's another plate. It's getting so I should recycle him when his time comes instead of burying all that expensive hardware he's toting around.

The hell? Who does he think he is, Buffy ?

t hug. Oh, heck, and a smooch too

If anyone knows, you do, love. We're waiting to see if shaving will take care of the current blown disc or if it's another plate.

It's amazing how much abuse the spine can take. Fucking amazing.