FTR, I think that's the first time I have not been tempted to look at "super seekrit" whitefont.
Lorne: You know what they say about people who need people. Connor: They're the luckiest people in the world. Lorne: You been sneaking peeks at my Streisand collection again, Kiddo? Connor: Just kinda popped out.
'Time Bomb'
Spike's Bitches 21 Gunn Salute
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risque (and frisque), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Pix - Jan 05, 2005 3:39:37 am PST #1269 of 10002
We're all getting played with, babe. -Weird Barbie
billytea - Jan 05, 2005 3:44:25 am PST #1270 of 10002
You were a wrong baby who grew up wrong. The wrong kind of wrong. It's better you hear it from a friend.
M's funeral was yesterday. It was a lovely service, I'm sure it was just what she wanted. I gave the eulogy, on D's request.
The wake was just as M wanted, everyone enjoyed themselves. Then, when it was winding down, Gareth caused a scene. We were all going home, he demanded to come back too. Everyone was too wrecked to deal with him too, so he was told no. Since now I'm back, I was the one standing between him and D. As usual, he became abusive as soon as he didn't get his own way. And then he got someone to drive him over anyway, and he stayed pretty much as long as he wanted - which, of course, was as long as it took to demonstrate that his was the only opinion that mattered. And he threatened to come around again today.
He came around today too, but the only other person around was Kathleen. She went home once he turned up, then called the rest of us to warn us. So everyone else stayed away until he'd gone.
I don't need this kind of stress. I feel like I was barely able to stay upright until after the eulogy. I got to offload for about twenty seconds, while D and I were alone in the house after the wake before everyone got back (especially, of course, Gareth). And now I need to hold it together until Gareth's not an issue for the rest of us.
Nora Deirdre - Jan 05, 2005 3:48:19 am PST #1271 of 10002
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)
billytea, I'm sorry. That kind of family dynamic is the last thing you and the rest of your family needs.
You're all in my thoughts. I am so very glad you are there to to stand between G and D, though.
Pix - Jan 05, 2005 3:49:40 am PST #1272 of 10002
We're all getting played with, babe. -Weird Barbie
Oh God, William. How completely horrible for you. {{{{{{{{{billytea}}}}}}}}}}}}}
What, if anything, can we do for you? I'm about ready to hop a plane to Australia (and no, this has nothing to do with the fact exams are next week and I haven't written mine yet, really). Love love love is reaching out to you from my corner of the world to yours.
juliana - Jan 05, 2005 4:01:46 am PST #1273 of 10002
I’d be lying if I didn’t say that I miss them all tonight…
Jeebus, billytea. How awful. I know there's not much we can do from here, but you do have a lot of love and support.
Topic!Cindy - Jan 05, 2005 4:03:51 am PST #1274 of 10002
What is even happening?
Oh, billytea, I am so sorry. I was thinking about you yesterday. That goodbye is so hard. I am glad that the service and gathering are what your mother wanted. I am sorry your brother seems incapable of putting his issues aside, and handling his grief and grieving family like an adult.
Can you offload some more, if not to a friend, or family member, how about here? You know how we love Nilly? That's the way we love you, too. I feel free to speak for Buffistas on this. We love you, and we can do so little. Please don't be afraid to let us do the one thing we can do--listen. If this is too public for you, there is email, LiveJournal. I don't know if you ever created one, but now, you don't even need to be invited, bt. You can just create a free account. You can make your entries completely private, or filtered so only certain of your friends can read them, or filtered to your whole friends list, or publish them for the world to see, but in cyberspace, nobody need know who you are.
Ginger - Jan 05, 2005 4:05:27 am PST #1275 of 10002
"It didn't taste good. It tasted soooo horrible. It tasted like....a vodka martini." - Matilda
Oh, billytea, I'm so sorry. I also want to kick your asshat brother repeatedly.
vw bug - Jan 05, 2005 4:17:48 am PST #1276 of 10002
Mostly lurking...
billytea, I am so very sorry. I'm glad that the service went well and was what M would have wanted. I am so sorry about the family drama that has come with it, though. Like you need that on top of everything else!
As everyone else has said, we're here for you in any way we can be. Much love is coming your way. I am so sorry you have to go through this right now on top of everything else. But, I am glad that you're home and able to be there for it all.
Nora, insent.
Deena - Jan 05, 2005 4:23:16 am PST #1277 of 10002
How are you me? You need to stop that. Only I can be me. ~Kara
{{BT}}} What everyone else said. Love you. Come vent here whenever you can/want to.
WindSparrow - Jan 05, 2005 4:26:12 am PST #1278 of 10002
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.
{{{{{{bt}}}}}}}
Kristin, skipping the super seekrit porn was a good move - if for no other reason than that it was completely work and kid safe - possibly not diabetic-safe, though, except for the intended recipient. Definite sugar-shock potential in there.
And really, I'd be humiliated for you to get your first impression of my porn capabilities from xoxox's. True Andi-style porn is ... well... only fit for trekkies of the J/C type. And if there are any here, http://www.geocities.com/merriwyllow/ Although, Ensign Kim did get some in one of my early stories.