Sean, I love you man, I really do. You've consistently been a very good friend to me. However, as a friend right now I feel the need to say that you could really be served well be stepping back a bit and chilling. I know things are no fun right now but it feels like you are lashing out at everything within range.

Wolfram, I am personally okay with the pigpile, but given that others think it's a wrong thing, and will comment on "not pigpiling on so and so" I'm wondering why it's okay to pigpile on me. Pigpiling is another word for consensus, in my mind. "We all consense that you are being a dick, Al."

Except maybe they would have had some smoke blown up their asses alongside.

This.

You said Sean's not a filmmaker so he shouldn't have gotten upset at ita

No. That's completely untrue. I said that Sean's argument, that ita was personally using him a a whipping boy was wrong, because I was also going to question his post. I didn't say he shouldn't have gotten upset because he's not a filmmaker. I said he could just as easily blown up at me. (or anyone who had recently debated with Sean) It didn't seem to be about ita at all.

What Connie said made me think again that I shouldn't say, "I was going to say and didn't that..."

I mean, there's a reason I didn't say it in the first place, mostly, right?

My rage at Sean was unreasonable, because my love for ita is unreasonable, most likely. Without the inbetween hours, I'd likely have been banned, which would have made me unhappy in the long run, and caused some pain for the community.

I find it very disturbing that you were consciously composing threats with the stated intention of driving off a long-term member of this board.

Well, sure. Of course it is disturbing. I'm disturbed by it, too. After JenK and I spun each other around and I had a rage-on, notepad became my bestest friend. I don't want to lose this place because I went apeshit. I like it here. I like it enough to make some changes in order to not hurt folk.

I think I've been far more cruel than Sean, before. I attacked a mentally ill woman and recovered, somewhat, enough to be able to keep some friends.

What Lee said helped clarify and soften some of the feelings that have been eating at me.

So you wanted a free swipe at Sean because the board was slow on the uptake for ita? WTF?

WTF, indeed. No.

t peers in

t backs away

t gathers courage, strips off all clothes, runs naked through the thread, waving her arms

ai ai ai ai aiyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

(which is my desperate attempt to derail the conversation without in any way negating the valid and honestly felt responses of everyone who has participated in the conversation)

t grabs popcorn, hopes for an encore from Consuela.

t runs after naked Consuela

I can get behind nekkid Consuela.

Ummm....

Okay, Sean, I'll get in front.

Wait...

I get one of the sides then!