My sympathies for stressful dreams. I hate waking up all worn out and upset after those, the opposite of rest

Yay docs! Imagining Teppy's mom combining yoga and head-kicking is amusing me

I remember that my last dream of the night/morning was low-key stressful, but not why. I woke up with a racing heart and a feeling of "I need to get back in there and figure it out," but no memory of what it was that needed my figuring.

My last vivid dream was Ethan insisting fervently that we had to move to Hartford CT, and me asking him variations on "But why? What's there?" and not getting any satisfactory answers. I have ZERO idea where this came from.

Since I know dcp likes to track flights we're on DL 2054 tomorrow. Delta 9:30am SFO to LA.

I haven't packed but it's only for a weekend so I'm not worried and I've done this particular trip so many times.

Hah!

(SFO-->LAX departing at 0930...I'm seeing that listed as DL1421. Interesting.)

(SFO-->LAX departing at 0930...I'm seeing that listed as DL1421. Interesting.)

I'm alert to either possibility now!

Last night I dreamed about having a family get-together at an aunt's palatial estate (which she does not own in reality) where my dad, my deceased cousin, and another aunt whose funeral I just attended were present. I had rigged up a model train to carry a Godzilla doll attacking a building as entertainment for the kids.

Welp, the condo buyer backed out. So. I'm getting the earnest money, thank goodness, because we are Out. Of. Money. until it sells, but I'm feeling a lot of stress about it all. It was supposed to close (cash sale) in May. Then the guy asked for a one-month extension, so the new date was June 16. Got everything signed and notarized and ready before leaving today, and got the call this morning that the guy has to cancel because he can't close due to some snafu with a business loan. The property values in that area have gone down since it listed two months ago, so I probably won't get as good an offer as we did initially.

But it's not really about the money (though, yes, a lot of the stress is about the money). It's also about closure. I'm hosting Dad's celebration of life Sunday, and I really really wanted that to be the end so when ND and I head to Ireland on the 15th, I could really disconnect from the bureaucracy and management and logistics and spend time healing. Instead, I'm still going to be worrying about maxing out credit cards and signing documents and all of the bureaucracy that comes with death.

I know it's going to be okay. I do. It's just hard today.

Oh no, Pix! That's a disappointment, for sure.

Oh no!