I'm the biggest baby in babyland when it comes to pain. Seriously, it is embarrassing how little pain I can endure. This combined with my inability to take most painkillers is an issue. Since they can't give me opioids for pain they end up giving me valium so I won't care about it. That said, I did endure childbirth without help a couple of times. That sucked, but I was more afraid of needles, see above big baby note.

That sucks, dcp. Hope the heat helps

There is one single solitary person who is not me in the office this morning. It's a little early still, but it is not usually *this* quiet. Ominous.

I have to say that I’m really glad I was at work last night & didn’t even have to think about listening to the ranting of the madman in the White House. Reports this morning have been plenty.

Yeah, just reading other people react to it was a lot

There is one single solitary person who is not me in the office this morning. It's a little early still, but it is not usually *this* quiet. Ominous.

My suspicion is that one day you'll come into work and find yourself the CEO and sole employee after the last round of layoffs.

I haven't had much going on in my life but things just got interesting....in a not fun way.

Last week M was at his PT appointment and his chest was hurting and had been and he ended up being taken to the ER. His heart is fine. He might have fluid in his lungs , he has an appointment Tuesday.

Then today I was at work and not feeling great. Then ona. Topstock cart and I got all tunnel vision and feeling worse. I had been nauseous, sweating , then I was feeling pins and needles down my arm. I called my doctor who said to go the ER. A coworker was going to drive me but I started having a panic attack and I called 911.

Good news! It's not a heart attack or a stroke. I didn't go to the ER but just urgent care went it looks like I almost fainted but who knows why. So I need to call my Dr and make a follow up appointment.

Also the car parked next to my coworker's almost backed out and hit the fire truck and the guy had an EMS and firefighter yell at him.

I'm dealing with the fatigue of almost fainting.

In non medical news I've started reading books again . I feel bad because I ended up signing up for Kindle Unlimited to read the Dungeon Crawler Carl books and then started reading some romance and now I'm distracted enough by the books I don't doom scroll. So Amazon is evil but it's also helping my mental health so I went with that.

My suspicion is that one day you'll come into work and find yourself the CEO and sole employee after the last round of layoffs.

Ha! Not today. People did eventually show up

Yikes, askye! I am still subscribed to Kindle Unlimited and I always have the max number of titles borrowed so I haven't figured out what I'm going to do about that, either.

We had a guest speaker/chef today, kind of fun. The food we got to sample is quite good and honestly the speaking part was fine also but a couple things she said ["my mother didn't cook because she grew up with a household chef" and "the first time I ate at French Laundry for my 23rd birthday"] kind of took me out

My therapist and I have cobbled together a plan to help me try to chill out and not feel like I'm constantly living in crisis mode, in the face of this dystopian hellscape plus what is quite frankly C-PTSD (yayfun). That includes meditating every day, keeping a gratitude journal, and taking a restorative yin yoga class once a week. Today is my first yoga class, and, as is typical for me, I'm stressing out over finding parking because they don't have a lot. I feel like if you stress out about parking for yoga, then you definitely need yoga to help you chill the fuck out. Namaste, bitches.

Namaste, bitches.

NATLBSB

I'm glad you and your therapist have a plan. It's good to have a plan.

I do understand your parking thing, I must say. May yoga be restorative with a perfect space waitng just for you.

Having dinner with the Birthday Four tonight IN VIRGINIA for once (we usually meet in DC), and I am beyond excited not to have to slog downtown in The Traffic.

Really what I would like is a nap. I drank iced coffee late yesterday afternoon and was up until 3:30a (yes, I know I just had an object lesson from... Brenda? Thai coffee in the afternoon is a non-restful idea. I meant to order decaf and just spaced). Ah, well.

askye, hope you and M are doing OK

Same to everyone, actually.