I’ve been in such a deep funk all summer, which I was in denial about the causes of, but after she died, with me there to see it, I now feel like a weight has been lifted off me.

Oh, Tom. It's so hard, but I'm so glad to hear this. Waiting for someone to die is...I don't even know how to finish that sentence. But I'm glad to hear you're feeling a tiny bit of respite.

Shir, I'm so sorry this continues to be your reality. Thinking about you.

Still thinking of you in what comes next, Tom. Love to you.

I’ve been in such a deep funk all summer, which I was in denial about the causes of, but after she died, with me there to see it, I now feel like a weight has been lifted off me.

It is good that you were able to be there. I hope this helps bring you peace and comfort.

Tom, my thoughts are with you.

Shir, I’m glad you’re safe.

Karl, I’m sorry you’re having such a difficult time. I’m glad you’re able to be with good people.

My therapist is leaving, and she just texted me to change our final appointment to virtual. She has already set me up with a new therapist at my practice, but I’m still feeling all sorts of panic. And part of me is wondering why I’m even bothering seeing another therapist.

Tom, my heart goes out to you.

Sending you love, Tom

I need some health ~ma for M. We had the bathroom floor replaced. It took 14 hours. His nieces step dad did it. But they didn't check something with the water and the toilet was running all night.

His mom knew but I woke us up at 4 am to tell us because that was ...better in her mind. Anyway. m went out to the street to shut it off and bashed his toe with the metal thing, possibly broke it. Ripped the nail off. We are at the ER.

Oh ow!! Poor M! Hope the ER is able to see him quickly

M has a broken toe, he lost his toenail but gained 4 stitches. He also has a prescription for antibiotics and anxiety (the ER doc gave him I'm not sure how much but his anxiety over this is really bad...he was frustrated and anxious about the water running and possibly causing damage and that was a factor in the accident). Right now he is on the couch with his foot elevated and asleep with Duchess asleep on top of him so hopefully he will feel better when he wakes up.

I don't want to turn the water back on until it can get fixed but that will be later this evening.

I've had about 2 hours of sleep and I need to get a nap so I can go and get M's prescriptions when they are ready, I'm tired enough I was trying to figure out why they weren't ready yet...at 8 am when the pharmacy isn't open. But I need to sleep so I feel ok driving over there.

I had to call out of work because no way I can work like this. And I have tomorrow off so I have 2 days I can really dote on M and try to take care of him.

Ouch, send ~ma for quick healing and pain relief.

Today is Fred Pete's birthday. I haven't heard anything from him in some time and hope that he is well. I know he was having a rough time the last time he was around. Sending loving thoughts his way.