and then Matilda came and hugged me from behind and was murmuring, "I love you I love you I love you" and now I feel worse because I don't want her to feel responsible for her mother's well-being.

Awww, but that's when she told us that the girls in her school wrote "I believe" in marker on their arms today.

does anyone know anything about an assertion that Ford did not write her own opening statement?

JZ, having a child doesn't mean you never get to lose it. Especially such a grown-up child as yours! You have done no damage.

People are waiting for mid term elections or Mueller and I think it's too late. I think we should have been in the streets every day and never stopped. I don't know what to do to change anything because we have to rely on Congress and voting.

All of this.

JZ, I think teaching our kids that we're human, too, and get overwhelmed and upset, is really important. What Jesse said about no damage done.

I have nothing else. My rage is fading into despair.

In related news (bear with me), my office does a crazy Halloween thing with every section having a different theme. My hallway was successful last year with Stranger Things, and the ringleader has suggested Handmaid's Tale for this year. Is it weird that I'm excited to dress up like a Handmaid??? (I don't know if others will have an opinion about wanting to show more characters, but I feel like a bunch of Handmaids is the way to go....)

Fuck all of this. I can't even talk about the Supreme Court hearings, but the awesome opportunity that I was up for? The company had other priorities come to the forefront. I blew them away but they can't currently prioritize the resources I'd need to be successful. They want to keep the door open.

I'm trying really hard not to burn it all down and curl up in a ball.

Sorry, msbelle.

I haven't heard anything about Ford not writing her opening statement.

It's clear the Republicans are going to pretend the Ford testimony didn't happen, that there aren't other allegations, that Kavanaugh is obviously being dishonest about his drinking at that time.

Ugh, sorry Maria.

Sorry, Maria. That sucks.

I'm sorry, Maria.

JZ, I don't think it's a bad thing to show children that we're affected by hard things in life. I think showing that life can make us weep on the floor, but then we get up the next day and keep going, can be useful to them. It would be lovely if Matilda never had to deal with problems that weighed her down so profoundly. But if she does, it will be good that she can remember her mother doing so as well, and getting through them. Sort of like what someone or other said about fairy tales with monsters. Fairy tales don't tell kids that the world has monsters—kids already know that. Fairy tales tell kids that monsters can be survived, or even beaten.