Communications class was not terrible, I actually learned something interesting and the interactive parts were not as horrible as I feared, just small group discussion.

Yay!

I don't think I want to know what agile is!!

Meanwhile my job is making me utterly batshit. But looking around, any new job wouldn't give me nearly as much vacation. So I soldier on, while screaming inside. ..last week wasn't even a full week. Dear god. How will I last??

Two different customers sent me orders after 4pm, one at 5:30! WHYYYYYYY

So today had some interesting turns....

I found myself directly contradicting my big boss of 7 months on his version of how the changes are going…had a coworker I haven't worked with in years then pipe up 'You can always trust Sara to lay it out as it is' and another 'Remember when she told (revered leader way back) NO, we can't do that?', had everyone turn and look at me (well, it was true)…& then hours later have the head of IT quote back to other leadership my critique of the dangers of implementation from above -and y'all woulda get it: it was 'show, don't tell' or else your audience won't buy in- and that was all way more visibility than I'm comfortable with. And that was just today.

It's supposed to be product owner training. Trainer is trying, but leadership has some serious ish to work out & funnily enough, it's all us lower level that are dragging them & this was their idea!

Hopefully won't get myself fired in the process. I am getting some useful things out of it beside upper mgmt gossip, but that is certainly juicy!

Y'all writers & doc people will be happy to hear that we're all in agreement, as is trainer, that throwing our documentation into the same process as dev is unwieldy & not realistic as it requires a more comprehensive view to be useful to the final audience.

WHYYYYYYY

Sometimes that's the moment in the day you can do these things without getting interrupted (in my office, anyway).

Not just to make me stay later? Well, I suppose that's possible.

That is an unfortunate side effect.

Yeah, I don't really get any serious work done until after 5. No phone, IM, emails popping up . . .

And am trying hard not to go off on cow-worker who insists on scheduling meetings before I have time to actually get work done, so that calls with the customer are me basically working through the document with them on the phone. On todays call, I said "I'm in meetings for the rest of the day and out tomorrow, but will send the two documents that you sent yesterday out for internal review on Monday, and the four documents that we just finished I will send out on Tuesday" The stupid bench scheduled a meeting for Tuesday at noon. Even if I could get it out before the meeting, they will not have reviewed it by then and then they will be working through it on the call. When I pointed it out, she said "they're hoping that you get it done by COB Monday" Good forking luck.

Here I sit, waiting for the 8:30 retrospective meeting to begin. 8 minutes late, and the big room full of developers has not connected to the meeting. La la la.

Yeah, I don't really get any serious work done until after 5. No phone, IM, emails popping up . . .

Yeah, that's why I try to get to the office before most of my coworkers. I'm the annoying person who's filling up your inbox for the start of your day.