This year. . . Megan I am so sorry for your loss.

I cannot believe that Tday is this close and I have no desire to cook or bake.

I am at the office today and may come in all week to help with focus. Co-worker who does a lot of stuff I do not know about yet is on vacation this week. I am having to ask a lot of people a lot of questions and it is exhausting and making me feel like an imposter.

Fuck, I'm completely paranoid about Thanksgiving. Rapid tests are probably accurate but maybe not accurate enough if you're asymptomatic.

megan walker, I'm so sorry to hear about Peter. I remember you mentioning him on here.

brenda, what a terrible year. My word.

I forget sometimes how much I live in my own head...like there are a few of you that I think, "I could have so-and-so call them, we're friends," but then go "Wait, are we really friends, or do I just think we're friends because I think of them so fondly...but then neglect to actually follow up with calls or messages or whatever and they think of me as just some rando that they barely know that they maybe shared a meal with that one time..." So just some Sunday afternoon overthinking things. Whatever, I love you guys.

Oh man oh man I am so glad I'm not the only one who feels this way.

I've been feeling socially paralyzed for, oh, since the beginning of June? I can barely summon the energy to post and respond here, nevermind actual email/text/phone conversations. (My job involves a lot of video conference calls, so after-hours Zoom hangouts are unfortunately really unappealing. too much phone.) I know my mood and energy levels would be better if I were less isolated but I don't know how to get out of this rut.

I am in a pit, too. I'm aways in something of a trench, but this here is a pit.

I think I've been here for a year or more. When my son was really sick, I didn't have the wherewithal to deal with anything else. He's been doing pretty well since his surgery last year, but I don't know that I ever recovered or thought about trying to climb out of the pit. I haven't decorated yet though, which might seem like a good sign, but I suspect it's because I don't even have the spoons for pit decorating.

Oh Megan, I’m so sorry. And to others who have posted, I tend not to see your posts until several days later, and then I feel weird and awkward about making a list. Please know I have seen and sent virtual hugs for everyone one of your losses and sorrows.

I'm sorry for the loss of your friend, megan walker.

Yeah, Thanksgiving is just so different this year, it's hard to even get my brain around it, much less plan for it. But we did talk turkey this morning (heh). I'm going to look for the smallest whole, frozen one I can find today after a routine lab work appointment. With even a smallish turkey in the freezer, it will be hard to ignore impending stuffing, mashed potatoes, and green bean casserole day.

I just noticed "Phoenix Board Reborn 1.0.2" in the bottom bar of my screen. It gives me a happy. Even in a gloomy pit of despair, this is a place of light.

We were planning to go up to have Thanksgiving lunch with my parents on their porch but my Hopkins emergency room doc friend is advising against that now. Given what she's seen in the last few days in the ER.

Yeah, I have reservations for a restaurant with a patio, but... should we? Probably not.

And Megan Walker, I'm so sorry.

lisah, that's alarming.

I think our patio dining is done. Not just because the weather is turning, I mean.

Our Costco hasn't had TP or paper towels for a month or more.