ION, ltc is so invested in the election that she isn’t throwing a fit that I have the news on.

At the risk of being an enormous asshole, I'm finding it really difficult to celebrate the wins in Wisconsin and Michigan because 2016 me just wants to scream WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I NEEDED YOU YOU SEXIST MOTHERFUCKERS.

Jessica speaks for me.

Jessica also speaks for me.

Apparently today is National Stress Awareness Day, and also National Candy Day? Consequently, I am eating chocolate while remarkably aware of my current stress level.

I am kind of putting my head in the sand. My mom and I are both pessimists, and we have alway thought Trump was going to win. The good thing about being a pessimist is you might get a happy surprise instead of a disappointment!

I have been taking the bus to work again, because I really need to be in the building for my sanity and I can't pay that much for Uber. I am going 2-3 days per week. Every day but today everyone has been well-masked or told to mask by the bus driver, good about distancing, and the busses were really empty.

Tonight, the following happened: A masked person and I got on the bus and social distanced. A third person, wearing a mask around his ears SAT DOWN RIGHT ACROSS FROM ME!!! ( A man wearing his mask on his chin sat in front of me. There is at this point SO MUCH ROOM on the bus. Several other mask wearers enter/leave etc, but at some point I notice 3 more people without their masks on their noses, a gaggle of talking people who took of their masks and had them on their chins, and A MAN WHO TOOK HIS MASK OFF TO COUGH!!!!!!! I GLARED at him and he covered back up.

The bus driver just kept playing the voice over thing that reminded people to wear masks. I really just about lost it, but I didn't really want to get in a fight on a bus if people were touchy about it. I wish I had been wearing my School of Nursing mask so I could have pretended to be a nurse as ammunition.

Sophia, that sounds maddening.

Apparently today is National Stress Awareness Day, and also National Candy Day? Consequently, I am eating chocolate while remarkably aware of my current stress level.

I endorse this plan.

Ugh, Sophia! I'm sorry.

I have no candy but I am very aware of my stress. So, half observant, I guess.

Today I learned that asking the taller person in the house for help with your own willpower about snack food results in them putting said snack food at the back of the top shelf. In retrospect, this was not a good plan.

Well I was feeling great because I safely got my hair cut but then I ended up talking to dad and I ... I ended up basically hanging up on him becuase I just can't. I will never ever understand how he can think the things he does and I wish I was more ignorant of his thoughts on things.

The big contention was over Covid response and how he thinks it's a crafted narrative that Trump didn't do as good a job as he could have about Covid and caused more deaths and there's no way to know if someone else had been President if there would have been a better response. Trump LITERALLY pushed conspiracy theories and fake cures--- that people believed. And maybe if he hadn't done htat it would have been a little bit better. Maybe we would have had 200,000 deaths instead of as many as we do which wouldn't have been great but something. Or if there was a better federal plan on dealign with a shortage of PPE but when I brought up that -- "I don't think that's true, that's just the story the media is creating."

Also Dad "I don't know why the ballots aren't getting delivered, the person in charge should be finding out why and making it right"

Me: The person in charge is the one who is creating the problems, and then I outlined what those problems were. And then dad pulled the "are you sure that was their intent, how do you know this"

because it's been reported on for months.

skye, it sounds like we have the same dad. My dad has said shit like "The media lies about everything anyway," so I asked him "How on earth do you determine what's true, then?" and he said "Whatever sounds right to me." O_o

Which is basically how Trump thinks, and what makes him so appealing to voters like my dad. Although I think my dad didn't vote, thank god. (Not that it helped Ohio.)

I don't know what to think about , Dad most of the times he says he doesn't personally like Trump and then he'll say that whatever Trump does is bad but then kind of try to downplay or minimize whatever it is so it's not that bad or the Left is just as bad so it's both sides are to blame.

And I lied I didn't basically hang up on him, I literally did that.

I did text him and say what I did was childish and wrong and I'm regret what I did and that I love him. I was going to say "but I'm really upset about whatever" but then it doesn't really matter because what I did was rude and I should have ended the conversation earlier or not brought up topics but I did.

My dad won't change. I think I keep hoping since Mom did he will, but he is not going to. He's still the same man who went to Mom when I was 16 or 17 and said he was worried I was going to grow up to be a feminist.