We'd have to keep ltc out of school for 2 weeks if we leave the state. So, we can't go to mom's and having them here seems too stressful. The house is a disaster, and I've never cooked a Thanksgiving dinner before.

I'm trying to get stuff done today. So far I've done 1 loss of laundry, cleaned out the fridge because it's trash day, made a meal plan for the week, took down near from the freezer, and charged my Fitbit for the first time in months. Now, I'm going to nap because I was up most of the night last night, and TCG has a meeting after dinner. So, I'm solo parenting at bedtime.

I had to shut down and restart my laptop to try to fix an issue (which it didn't fix, but I tried) so I took that opportunity to go to Starbucks and while I was there I remembered they have donuts so I had a donut. Yay!

I've always loved cooking the huge family holiday dinners. That doesn't stress me at all. This year. Yeah, not happening.

Intellectually I've acknowledged that the family Thanksgiving and Christmas gatherings aren't happening this year, but I'm repressing that knowledge on the emotional side, because I run the ragged edge of crying a couple days a week already, and I don't need to add to that.

I think even if my out-of-state parents and brother don't make the trip, I can host my 2 sisters (who live in NYC) so we won't be totally alone, but it won't be the same.

I am still doing all the cooking. I will be on zooms or FB lives or something.

The past several years we have done a 5K in the morning and heated up Whole Foods precooked stuff for the meal and that has been nice, but I imagine this year will be different. The race promoters are making noises like they will be doing non-virtual runs soonish, but the Thanksgiving races are enormous numbers of people, I don't see that happening. Or if they do happen, I probably shouldn't go. Not to mention I am ridiculously out of shape. I should really do something about that.

Yeah, we did decide that we would do all the cooking for Thanksgiving even though it's just the two of us, and my sister is going to set up a Zoom situation for those of us who are remote.

I am really hoping I am working on Thanksgiving so I don't have to deal with what to do.

And I have been feeling optimistic about my company but someone pointer out an article from last month by Forbes aboutt how they haven't paid multiple vendors for more than 90 days.

I am torn about doing a full dinner for just me, or possibly with my brother, or just buying, like, a small ham, and whatever fixins. I realized in the last few years, it's not the T-day feast I look forward to anywhere near as much as the leftovers (sammiches!) But a full turkey seems kind of ridiculous. My problem with turkey is I like the dark meat. So I could find just a breast for me or me & bro, but I don't know a way to get dark meat without doing a whole bird.

The friend who invited me last year to a Friendsgiving is one of the most vocal anti-maskers I know, unfortunately, so I'm not going anywhere near her anytime soon.