Or he's holding hers, so she can be the lightning rod to God's reaction to That Man being in a church.

I need some talking down from the ledge. I cannot find the key to my safe which means I cannot get more checks which means I cannot go pay my property taxes today - This has resulted in me having a complete crying breakdown for the last 30 minutes.

I cannot call my parents because they would freak the fuck out about me being a disaster and would worry for weeks.

I cannot call the brother because he is thousands of miles away and will just feel helpless, but also want to fix things and there is no fix, none immediate anyway.

And I do not know why I cannot just keep track of things and not have so much crap that there are bagillions of stupid little boxes and baskets and junk drawers and crap-filled things that I could look from now until dawn and still have more places to look. why can;t I just fucking manage my fairly simple life and not be a disasterous mess.

also? where might my keys be.

{{{msbelle}}} Could you go get a money order or a counter check at your bank so you can pay your taxes and worry about your keys later?

Whether that is possible or not, you will be okay. You will get the taxes paid eventually, you will find the keys or apply some leverage to the safe or something. It's not the best this could go but it's truly not a disaster.

Also, I don't know where the keys to my fire-proof safe are either. So there's some important stuff in there like my passport that I can't really get to.

You will get the taxes paid eventually, you will find the keys or apply some leverage to the safe or something. It's not the best this could go but it's truly not a disaster.

What -t said. If you can, get yourself to stop with the "everything is a disaster" part. This might be a problem, but you can fix it, and not everything is a disaster, I promise.

On the other hand, sometimes you just need to freak out for a while and that helps.

Thing I just said that I swear makes sense in context "82765, that sounds like chocolate. So maybe if it doesn't say that it's Merlot"

ok - yes I can initiate the check online through my bank. yes good. done.

Thank you both.

Now I need to clean things in my house.

I cannot find the key to my safe which means I cannot get more checks

Your bank could also cut you a money order. Also you can get a money order that's cheaper from the Post Office. Just in case such a need arises again.

Ohhhh, all the Day of Mourning means a bunch of people who would normally be at work are shopping and the outlet is super busy. I did not make that connection.

Good job, msbelle.

Timelies all!

There are flurries happening now. Hopefully it won't be any more than that.

{{msbelle}}

I ordered Taco Bell on line to pick up at the drive through window. If drone delivery had been an option I probably would have selected that.

Junk tv is on my schedule tonight because annoying doctor customer was extra annoying. He says he is going to hold us responsible for any 4% decrease in his medicare billings if we didn't get his reports up to snuff, blah, blah, blah. (probably over a million bucks) A: so not my problem B: I won't be bullied C: good luck with that buddy. Anyway, haven't responded but thinking I am going to finish out his year and of course do his reports just like I have the last 10 years then tell him to get someone else for his charting in 2019 because I really don't put up with bullies even if they do pay me a lot of money.