I am periodically confronted with the fact that I don't really understand how my mind works. Why do look at a dirty stovetop for 7 days and decide it's too much trouble to clean, then on the 8th day break out all the cleaners? It's a mystery.

I'm torn between respect for the people who have to deal with even more brain weirdness on a regular basis, and the creeping suspicion I am one of those people, I just haven't noticed because my coping mechanisms are working so well.

High five, bt! ... well, we started partial lockdown here, I'm willing to bet it'll be a full lockdown comes next week. We officially "cannot control the chain of infection" anymore since last week, so looks like

Intercontinental high five! Y'know, I'm taking the attitude that it's good we could just get in a session before shutdown. (It was a good one too, they had to take out a band of orcs and came up with a good plan to trick them into a more favorable battleground.

Plus, they captured a few goblins and needed to get the location of their base. Ryan was playing a sorcerer, so he was the party's Charisma go-to guy.

Ryan: "I intimidate the first goblin into giving us the answer." (Rolls a 3)
Me: "Yeah, I don't think that's going to do it."
Ryan: "Ok, to intimidate the second goblin I take the first goblin behind s tree and use Minor Illusion to make it sound like I'm killing him horribly." (Rolls a 1)
Me: "Congratulations, you managed to make it sound like you were killing yourself horribly."
James: "See, if we treat our own people this way when they mess up, imagine what we'll do to you!"

So yeah, fun session. I hope it'll hold them for a few weeks.

Ugh, I'm sorry, billytea.

Congratulations, Laura! Your kids are going to make fantastic parents.

I am periodically confronted with the fact that I don't really understand how my mind works.

I still don't understand why I can be fine for days and wake up the next with The Depression. Why today are my meds not working? Do they work at all? Yesterday was really good, today I want to crawl into a hole for pretty much ever. I don't get it.

I strongly suspect that all the regions in the US which have entered Phase 3 will be rolling back to Phase 1 in a couple of weeks once it becomes clear that "hope real hard this goes away" hasn't actually made this disease less infectious.

I fear that is the case, Jessica. This region of NY has had a very low rate of infection. This past holiday weekend the tourist town was packed with people. Restaurants, shops, streets, beaches, all jammed with breathing people from far and wide. Workers in the businesses were masked, but not all the people. I can't see the rosy numbers staying low.

Yeahhhhh, that doesn't seem like the guards were too bright, either. Contagious disease y'all! Am watching it because we are supposed to be starting up a drug trial at hospitals in Melbourne and one do the things I was arguing with the client about was making sure there was a plan in place if there were a second wave of Covid there....I guess maybe a third wave now!

Chris I have the same thought process, both on cleaning and on wondering if maybe I'm off, or if it's just normal human-ness. Because a lot of the procrastinate-y/adhd stuff I see seems like...common human traits? So I guess it's a matter of "is it so bad it gets in the way of your life"? And I guess I mostly have coping mechanisms.

Amy, for me it seems to be a mix of hormones, stomach issues, and whether or not I overdo it physically. I can't always control these factors but I have gotten really good at recognizing them. I have also started to associate a sudden deep depression which seems to come out of nowhere with the fact that I will likely have a migraine later that day.

FWIW, before I was actually diagnosed ADHD I would look at the traits for it and think "but doesn't everyone have that" in part because it's all kind of vague and a matter of degree and in part because I always thought everyone was like me...

I'm having a rotten anxiety day. Blah.