Sheryl, sorry about the destruction. I agree with Beverly. Limiting what is out might be the only way. I knew (from so many adoption books and sources) that mac would seek to destroy things he knew were important to me when he eventually got upset beyond his ability to express himself. Not that this is what S is doing, but purposefully or not - things are getting broken. I have things out in this house now that I have not seen in 12 years. I just boxed them up after the adoption and kept them away.

And as much as I do not like locks on doors - it may be needed for a short time if he is going beyond where he should be when you can't have your eyes on him 24/7.

As of yesterday I've made about 20 masks. Gave a few more to friends, and one to the neighbor, and have to mail a couple to my parents. But they're just cloth, not for medical purposes.

Just had my second hour long Skype Spanish class. It's exhausting, but good for me.

I super miss people. When I dropped off masks for friends yesterday I didn't stay long--they offered to give me a glass of wine to sit in the yard and talk to them through the doorway, but I left after just a minute, because I was afraid if I did that I'd give in and run up to them and hug them all. And they've been sick!

I did go to the big grocery store yesterday and they had most everything--the frozen fruit section was decimated and only had pomegranate seeds left, weirdly. But I got sugar, and that was the real concern!

I miss a few very specific people, but I'm actually starting to feel the relief of not having to interact with the general public on a daily basis.

It took me longer than it probably should have, but I have achieved a batch of Thai red curry with veg, shrimp, and crispy tofu. Properly crispy tofu! By using the freeze and boil in salt water method. I am enjoying it, which is good because I made a lot so I could eat the leftovers.

I'm thinking about signing up for a CSA, and not getting as many Purple Carrot boxes, at least for the summer. I need to figure out which CSA would be best for me, and if they're still available. Purple Carrot has been good for when my brain is so fried from work that I can't figure out food, but I don't think I'll need it as much during the summer.

Also, I emailed the lawyer about setting up the LLC for my genealogy business, and he emailed me back pretty quickly to set up a phone meeting. So maybe I'll have that going pretty soon.

I got one last reminder about my Botox appointment tomorrow at 10:53 PM. Still got it, guys.

I tried the "walking with a mask to work" today (I'm working in an office alone and it's the only way I can work right now. There's minimal risk). There is a hill on my way to work. I gave up just before it and took off my mask so I can inhale more oxygen while walking. Thankfully there weren't people around me most of the time so I could do it, but the walks now make me miss undisturbed oxygen supply.

Also, it feels like a Sunday. How's everyone doing?

I had a dream last night that they reopened the library but had rearranged everything and everyone else seemed to know all about it but nobody had told me. And in the dream I suddenly realized nobody was wearing face masks or social distancing.

Also I was carrying a spoon around.

So, a pretty basic snapshot of my psychology right now!

Edit: I don't know what the spoon means, though. Thoughts?

Making cookies solves everything?

Yay, you still have one spoon?

My waking dream seemed to go on forever. I was a Chinese restaurant owner/chef. There was only one customer and he didn't like my preparation of the first dinner (oxtails, ewww), so I brought him a second meal of the same, then he saw that I had some variety of chicken that I can't recall and he was all annoyed that if I had told him I had the chicken he never would have ordered the oxtail. So I brought him the chicken. Then for the next seemingly endless hours I debated with myself, meditated, talked to my wife, and tried to resolve how I would charge him. I think, but cannot be sure, that I ended up giving him a bill for the 3 meals but told him he owed me nothing and that it was clearly an unsatisfactory experience for both of us so he should not return.

So, lesson learned is that I am grateful that I am not neither a Chinese dude or a restaurant owner.