I filed my unemployment claim, I had to clarify a few things at the end becuase I answered wrong (I guess I don't know) anyway that's done. I'll see what happens next. I still have to find my W2 and file my taxes.
Monday I have a telehealth appointment with my meds manager person and I'm going to ask about anti anxiety meds. As much as I've been complaining about my home life I've realized I've been acting badly some of it I can control better than others but I keep running into issues of sensory overload and just feelings of being frozen because everything is too much. So I need help. Also I'm going to be working hard to not be anxious that my unemployment claim will be denied (I know that's not rational but my anxieties aren't rational so.. )
There's no loss yet, but I think there will be.
My mom called a little bit ago to ask me to pass along a message to my dad, but she started crying and couldn't speak. They've been divorced for 43 years but always bound by parenting, and as angry as she still is she's now haunted by her first real memory of him, the 22-year-old friend of her brother's she made out with in his car during a mutual friend's wedding reception.
Oh JZ, I feel for your mom so much right now. There are reason she fell for him in the first place and they don't just disappear when a marriage is over. Love to you and your brothers too.
There's a disadvantage to me checking b.org over breakfast when not-enough-caffeine has hit the brain yet, so I feel like words cannot express how much love I have to all of you. And with this, JZ, I am so sorry. All of the {{}}.
At the risk of going full-hippie, I feel them around me all the time.
Oh my goodness, this. I only have one roommate but she has Big Emotions and anxiety (her definition). My spider sense is being empathic. While we like one another, I've been hiding a lot in my room in the last two weeks from her expressing her feelings. And started playing music whenever she's on the phone/video call.
Yes!
My own anxiety is sufficient, thanks. Feeling other people's also is a bit much at the moment.
JZ, I'm so sorry this is happening to you.
Christopher and I played a new board game—Prime Climb (Hiya, Nilly!)
Why am I playing a mathematic game involving prime numbers with an actuary?
Whhhhhyyyyyyyyy?
I just want to give you all a hug. I am trying to reset some habits from last week and NOT sleep in. So I was up after 1 snooze of the alarm. Have fed the dog, showered, dressed, and partially coffee'd - all before I would have to be logged on for work.
Now debating if I go to the local grocery to get a few items.
I lay awake for hours last night, which led to sleeping way late today. I'm going full sloth and ordering breakfast delivered because *spins the excuse wheel* I'm supporting a local small business. Seriously, in a non -CVID world I'd have run out for something, so.
Besides, I found weevils in my biscuit flour, so that's not happening at home this morning. Ewwwww.
