Actually not needing validation right now, but thank you.

Buffy ,'Lies My Parents Told Me'


Natter 76: Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Foaminess  

Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.


JZ - Apr 02, 2020 1:13:33 pm PDT #19163 of 30019
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.

Just got off a group call with my brothers, my dad's girlfriend and the palliative care doctor. I think everyone is on the same page now; it's just an unbelievably shitty page.

Now I get to try to pull my shit together enough to do a Zoom training session for the co-worker who's supposed to be cross-trained on all my tasks. I can do all of hers--she has a lot, but I can more or less stumble through most of them; I really just have one, but she is extremely nervous and unconfident about it.

I would really like to Bartleby out of this, both because I'm a knotted mess and because she lacks 95% of the server access needed to do it anyway so all that's happened over the last couple of weeks is she does a couple of pieces, I pull together all the rest of it, she knits it more or less together and hands it back to me, I fix all the problems, and then I distribute. She's not learning anything (because she has no access to anything) and I'm doing *more* work than I'd do if I were just doing it to begin with. And now I get to train her in 3 minutes.

I want to just nope out of all of it and spend the rest of the week here being mad at Amy's bakery owner and vibing for Dana's husband's 9000th interview.

eta: I had to cancel the meeting. I'm not even sure what I looked like, but as soon as I logged on my manager and coworker both gasped and both started crying and told me to take all the time I needed and they'll figure it out. So.

I'm sorry you're stranded and unable to be with the people who need you. You always have been, however, so you are. Your heart is with your father and he knows it. He knows your daughter is with him too. Years of love don't dissipate because you're not in the room recharging them. It's an aggregate, not individual opportunities missed or unfulfilled.

Every time I read this, I cry with gratitude all over again.

FUCK. How do we tell Matilda?


Trudy Booth - Apr 02, 2020 1:48:30 pm PDT #19164 of 30019
Greece's financial crisis threatens to take down all of Western civilization - a civilization they themselves founded. A rather tragic irony - which is something they also invented. - Jon Stewart

FUCK. How do we tell Matilda?

You tell her and you break her heart. Then you love her through it.

I'm so sorry. This is the terrible price we pay for love.


Maria - Apr 02, 2020 1:51:51 pm PDT #19165 of 30019
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift

So much love to you, JZ. We can't fix this, but we will be here to carry you when the weight is too much.


P.M. Marc - Apr 02, 2020 1:59:25 pm PDT #19166 of 30019
So come, my friends, be not afraid/We are so lightly here/It is in love that we are made; In love we disappear

So much love to you, JZ. We can't fix this, but we will be here to carry you when the weight is too much.

Exactly.

You tell her and you break her heart. Then you love her through it.

This too.


Karl - Apr 02, 2020 2:10:41 pm PDT #19167 of 30019
I adore all you motherfuckers so much -- PMM.

Trudy, I have missed you and your wisdom. I'm glad you're here.


Trudy Booth - Apr 02, 2020 2:24:05 pm PDT #19168 of 30019
Greece's financial crisis threatens to take down all of Western civilization - a civilization they themselves founded. A rather tragic irony - which is something they also invented. - Jon Stewart

I've missed you too.


askye - Apr 02, 2020 2:31:49 pm PDT #19169 of 30019
Thrive to spite them

JZ I'm so sorry.


Karl - Apr 02, 2020 2:39:57 pm PDT #19170 of 30019
I adore all you motherfuckers so much -- PMM.

Hec and JZ and the rest of House Zmayhem, if there's anything at all I can do, please let me know; profile address is good. I'm not super-local, but I have a working car and can come into SF if need be.

And of course, loads of love and comfort to all of you. This really, really sucks.


Calli - Apr 02, 2020 2:40:49 pm PDT #19171 of 30019
I must obey the inscrutable exhortations of my soul—Calvin and Hobbs

I'm sorry, JZ. I'm glad your coworkers are being decent about things.


Amy - Apr 02, 2020 2:49:39 pm PDT #19172 of 30019
Because books.

I'm so sorry, JZ. Much love to all of you.

I'm sorry for your loss, Calli.

Also sending much job~ma to Dana's husband.