Someone asked the other day if they were alone in being unwilling or lacking the ertia to try to watch new shows or new movies, and no, they are not. I'm personally so self-buried and locked in trying not to lose my shit every other minute I have no attention span and no room in my head to cultivate investment in new-to-me characters, scenarios, etc

I could have written this. I think I've read 5 new-to-me books in the past year. That's it. Everything else is fic or endless rereads of The Night Circus or The Vampire Lestat. And if left to my own devices with the TV, it's episodes of Hannibal or Penny Dreadful, or horror movies I find soothing. (My comfort media tastes are weird, I own that.)

Hell, even new music is hard right now.

I think I've read 5 new-to-me books in the past year. That's it. Everything else is fic

This is me. I need to donate to AO3, because I'm permanently reading fic.

I read a lot of books but mostly easy ones like romances or mysteries or something. Not usually heavy or even thrillers! And apparently all I will watch is soothing british reality tv competitions.

Last year I self medicated by reading super easy gay romance novels. Way to many. Not even really good ones. And cozy mysteries. And I watched every true crime documentary available to me. Now I am relisteninfg to podfics.

Oh my god. I am at a Hindi wedding. My family is very large, and we are used to being the heavy in the room. Not so at this wedding. I am fucking wiped and am going to fall asleep reading fic.

I tried to REread a cozy mystery series (the lead character is a witch who owns a vintage clothing store!!), and my brain just straight-up said, "Nope, not soothing enough. Back to Hannigram fic" .

I'm definitely spending too much time reading fantasy, streaming video series, and playing gentle puzzle games like Gardenscapes.

I am reading a ton, but it tends to be binges of fairly light escapist stuff. I'm finishing up an urban fantasy series right now that is reminiscent of The Parasol Protectorate but not steampunk, for example. Kindle Unlimited is really enabling me. I am actively trying to get to the actual theater more to see new movies but it's still not happening much. The only TV I'm watching now that The Good Place is finished are B99, Stumptown, Doctor Who and SPN and I'm behind on those last 2.

And I can apparently spend a shocking (to me) amount of time on puzzle games. That's a dangerous rabbit hole for me, I think.

Re: twitter. Yes, it's all about how you use it and who do you follow. There is some wonderful content and people there, but as someone who is sensitive and alarmed by being around angry/shouting people on one hand, and as someone whose some of her friends are angry/shouting people on the other hand, it's a delicate balance (which I solve by following lists and following said friends but muting them so I can get updated when I can actively remember that they're not shouting at me but at the world). Either way, I am spending way too much time on that website.

Also, for reasons of being foolish and forget I have human limitations, after two things cleared from my schedule on Monday I unintentionally add six (yes, six) other things to this week's schedule. Yesterday, after not being able to understand why am I feeling so out and tired and vulnerable and like things falling out of my hands, I realized this was probably why. I'm after 24 hours of deliberately slowing down and resting, but it looks like I still do not have the brains to read things for my thesis. Which I kinda need to do urgently.

I think I fried up my brain a bit with doing too much. Oops.

My inertia doesn't stop me from watching TV or movies, but if it wasn't for audiobooks, I'd hardly be reading at all lately. I have no attention span for reading right now. Any little distraction keeps me from being able to concentrate, and by the time it is perfectly quiet, I'm too exhausted and fall asleep after a couple pages.