I'm trying to be a better advocate for myself.
Yikes! Indeed. You gave me visions of House episodes. I know that I am hard to get blood out of so I always tell them up front to not waste time and just give me the person who does the tough cases, and use a pediatric needle!
I'm about to see if I can get Sophia or someone to help me get through all my crap. Once again I am having a bunch of people for T'day food stuff and I have boxes all over of either computer or construction crap. It's overwhelming. My son will help, but he has already thrown away way too much of my stuff.
Got to work! It took two hours!
I am still horrible at it- you need Maria! I just want to throw it all away!
I'm home. O'Hare was especially O'Hare-y yesterday. Now I'm lying on the sofa contemplating ordering a ton of Indian food and finding ways to stay awake for eight more hours.
One place on my bucket list is the town of Atrani on the Amalfi Coast:
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OK- I think some of my anxiety might be hunger. I felt so much better after I ate. I am terribly, terribly not wanting to eat anything. In addition, I don't really want to cook because cooking means washing dishes, and I am afraid I will have a big pile (which is pretty unlikely, since I basically got rid of all but two of everything, including pans.
Sophia, my anxiety is very often related to hunger, upset stomach etc fwiw.
Sophia when I was struggling with ...everything ...and washing dishes seemed too much I switched to disposable everything and microwaving stuff. My go to meal was microwaved veggies with either meatballs or chicken thighs (I had a little thing that would cook them ok in the microwave). It wasn't interesting to eat but it was food.
Then later I got 1 plate and 1 bowl and only allowed myself to use 1 skillet 1 saucepan, and 1 of anything else so nothing piled up but I had to wash up frequently
I have cold cuts and cheese right now. But I am mostly just eating lunch at work. I think that is probably not enough. I think I have lost even more weight (but I don't weigh myself)
I leave for vacation tomorrow -- 4 days in DC with family, and then 6 days that includes road-tripping to Toronto. Naturally, today is the day that my pharmacy is claiming that one of my migraine medications is no longer covered.
I've been trying to make heath(ier) eating as easy as possible on myself because it has been so difficult to do anything for myself lately. If that means picking up oatmeal through a drive through or grabbing a ready made sandwich while I'm at the market, that is what I am doing. If disposable plate make it easier for you to take care of yourself, do whatever you have to do.
