there are many of us here who would be happy to be accountability partners, if that would help.

I might need to take you all up on that. Maria and I also decided once this big push is over she will come over every weekend to help me clean up the boxed off places, so hopefully that will help. But I am good at the big push and terrible at routines.

Frankly, I feel like having at most two dishes and silverware and like five black dresses is the way to go right now. Nothing is bringing me joy because I feel like I let my stuff down by not caring for it. I know that endowing the objects with feeling is part of my problem, but I think it will helps right now to not acquire more stuff.

I just cleaned my furnace. It was disgusting. I also think my landlord should probably do that, but it is in my house and there is no filter on the air blower.

I think it will helps right now to not acquire more stuff.

Honestly, do what you need to do right now to get through this without adding more stress.

I also think my landlord should probably do that, but it is in my house and there is no filter on the air blower.

Ugh, the landlord should really take care of the filter, though. Even if he just provides the filters so that you can change them. t makes note to see when the last time we changed the furnace filter was

There should probably be a filter, don't you think? And that sounds like a landlord responsibility, so you should probably ask him about it.

You are doing so amazingly well, Sophia--my pompoms are getting a workout. And I'll bet you're all cleaning-chic and adorable in your peekaboo netting-sided leggings. Do you have a jaunty kerchief on your hair? You probably should, just for coolness.

Yes, Cindy, how's your son? And you? And the rest of the fam all holding up with this course of treatment?

I have a circus going on across the street--our wonderful neighbor died last year and they're having her estate sale today. The wranglers have been organizing, displaying, and pricing things all week, and there's a huge, truck-top sign with balloons. I don't think this neighborhood has ever seen such come-and-go traffic. And it's fun watching people come and go in their Saturday estate-shopping duds. We're expecting company, so Himself did park the cars in front of the house, one of them partway across the carport. They'll text when they're close and one of us will run out and back up our car so they can scoot into the carport when they get here.

The way the furnace is made, there doesn't seem to be a place for a filter. It is built into the wall and has one vent pointing toward the living room and one toward the rest of the house. Maybe heater is a better term. There are no pipes.

Also, I must not be the only one doing clean out. The garbages are so full! I found a brand new in package pink pair of crocs and I took of my filthy flip flops, put on the crocs and went back in. So an even exchange and the flip flops were filthy and cold.

I do not have a jaunty bandana. I seriously thought about it while at Walmart!

Also a broom is better than a vacuum for removing spilled garam masala powder from a carpet.

Timelies all!

I will be so happy when Gary gets home(very late tonight, alas) since it has been A DAY.

I'm low on spoons but I want to cheer on Sophia and also inquire about Cindy's son and give Amy props for holding down the bakery fort and Sheryl for wrangling Mr. S by herself. In general I toss confetti at you all because that is way easier to vacuum up than glitter, and also apparently garam masala powder which I never heard of before but don't want in my carpet.

Losing my job is bringing up a bunch of crap I didn't think I was ever going to have to deal with, and I'm not really handling this all very well. I really need someone to talk to, but for various reasons I don't have anyone. My best friend would be willing to listen, she always is, bless her, but she's going through crap of her own right now and I don't want to add to her emotional burden.

Today I got an unexpected bill for $381 for medical supplies that have for years been covered 100% and suddenly, surprise, this year they are not. Wish I'd known that before I ordered them. That bill is not going on the top of the to-be-paid pile.

Oh Zen! You can talk to us.

Zen, I'd be happy to chat in email. Phone is a little rough with my cough right now.

Thanks so much, Amy. I might take you up on that. Right now I'm chatting with a former co-worker and she's helping calm me down.