had E drive to school - amazingly this driving thing is been amazing for our relationship, he is talking to me and gave me an unsolicited hug and is sharing stuff

That's fantastic. As is all your other stuff!

I am just barely paying attention to the outside world, because I Cannot Deal.

Msbelle glad driving is helping your relationship.

This...like knowing people are gleeful about the ...all the horrible things that are happening makes me so angry and I keep thinking violent thoughts towards those people. I don't want to think those things.

I'd really like to go to a protest just to feel other people fighting the same way I but I'm not there yet. I am slowly feel that ignoring the world is the only way to keep from becoming like those people.

Monday I'll call Tillis again. Call and get Burr's full voicemail. Tomorrow, like everyday, I'll go back to trying to reply to people with compassion and kindness. And step away when I need to.

This...like knowing people are gleeful about the ...all the horrible things that are happening makes me so angry and I keep thinking violent thoughts towards those people. I don't want to think those things.

I spend about ten minutes each day imagining various people experiencing the exploding head scene in Scanners.

I find it therapeutic.

Though I am mindful that my long held hate-wish for Scalia did no good at all.

Goddamnit. Met a cute girl last weekend. She put herself in my phone as "Jo the cute girl in the beanie" and we texted and she said she'd teach me to play pool, and we could t get together this weekend but she'd make it worth the wait. And then tonight she suddenly texts to be like "uh, this may have seemed like a date but it can't be a date just a friend thing hope that's ok". Wtf.

Re: Jo the cute girl in the beanie

Humans, man. WtF indeed.

I finally dragged my coughing butt into a walk in clinic and found out I have a sinus infection and bronchitis. And now I have antibiotics and a cough suppressant. So at least things should clear up in a week or so. Yay. At least it's not walking pneumonia.

My senators have both joined the ranks of those too scared to meet with their constituents. I had a whole script prepared and everything! While I appreciate the idea that protests, calls, etc. are having an effect, just sequestering themselves away and continuing to do things I find abhorrent are not the end result I'm looking for. I'm tempted to donate a dollar to each of them to see if there's a secret supporters' gathering that I can attend with some of my local lefties.

I'd say delete Jo the cute girl in the beanie from your phone unless you have a much higher tolerance for mindgames than I do, meara. She was definitely intentionally trying to make you think she was into you.

I'm guessing that's code for "got back together with my ex after all"? But I'm with Matt.

True, true. There was a span back in my 30s where every promising guy I went out with got back with his ex before I could arrange a second date a week later. I felt like I should have started billing each reconciled couple for my services as a relationship fixer.

That's what I assume, Jesse. Grrr

So I know there's more to it than this, but I kind of love how Ruth Negga went from Agents of SHIELD to Preacher to Oscar nomination!