every choice, large or small, forces me to choose whether to disappoint this person or that one because I am the instrument through which life let's them down.

Oh, yeah, I totally know this. I'm sorry you're feeling this way right now, Burrell. It totally sucks. Feeling like I was disappointing everyone in my life no matter how hard I tried is part of what drove me into therapy and to quit my job (so, so very fortunate that I could do that).

We're getting ready to leave for the UK today and I've gotten my brows and nails done and hair cut in the last couple of days, which hasn't happened in ages. I feel like a real human lady again! I also had a friend come over and do some reiki for me to try to help me deal with my dad on this trip. I really don't want to try not to get too annoyed with him, like I do! I will have to draw on all my reserves of patience and calm, though.

I have so many things I should do, and I feel like I'm just going in circles getting nothing done.

every choice, large or small, forces me to choose whether to disappoint this person or that one because I am the instrument through which life let's them down.

I'm sorry. I know that feeling very well unfortunately. I've been really struggling lately with the feeling that I'm failing at everything.

I am confident that none of you are failing at everything!!! Even (especially) when you prioritize your needs over the wants of others, even when those others are your children.

I am confident that none of you are failing at everything!!!

What she said.

Mac to band camp
Electricians at my house for work
Get outfit together
Mac from band camp
Grocery store with mac for GISHWHES stuff I need him to take a picture of me
Fence people at house
Start bread for GISHWHES
Made up for another GISHWHES picture
Mac to reading class
Errand to $$ store for GISHWHES items
Bake bread
Mac from reading class
pack Mac for trip (leaves tomorrow, early morning flight) to Uncle Gary's

Oh, Burrell, be kind to yourself. Every time I see the kids, I'm always struck by how lovely and happy they seem to be, and how much they enjoy engaging with people on topics they're passionate about. The love in your household is evident. I'd say you're doing OK.

This.

Oh, Overstock. You said the estimated delivery would be on the 11th, and yet you shipped it today. You think you're doing me a favor by sending it early, but you are not.

Blargh. Will the apartment complex hold it for you?

Is that the non-glare acrylic, Matt? That's what I was going to suggest.

I think the stuff I'm thinking of is actual glass, but unbreakable for household purposes.

EDIT: Nope, I'm wrong, it's laminated polycarbonate.