TWINSIES.

Oh, god, I almost had heart failure. I went back into Jossverse to read some September posts to get caught up with season 2 of Agents of SHIELD and there was a post from ita and my heart went "ita! it's ita! where have you been ita?' And then I remembered I was reading posts from last year.

For those who do't have Facebook or missed this:

I went to KC's PLanetComicon today and J. August Richards was one of the guests. One of my college roommates' boyfriend was his handler, and Steph asked me on FB, "If you meet JAR and have the chance (and are okay doing this), you could thank him for his kind post after ita passed away. That meant so much to me (as well as other Buffistas)."

I did so: "I totally just got done speaking with J. AUGUST RICHARDS. He was a complete gentleman and I thanked him for his post about ita's death and told him about the development of the scholarship in Jamaica and we talked for about 5 minutes. Anyways, amazingly nice. A gentleman."

He was SO NICE and he stood up to talk to me, shook my hand, moved to the side, and seemed genuinely really invested and pleased to know that her friends had been touched by his post about ita. I told him I would keep him posted about the scholarship information when arrangements are in place, and he asked me to please do so.

We aren't besties now or anything, but he was just lovely and gracious.

Also, since I was going to be talking to JAR about ita, it finally felt right to wear ita's SPN tee-shirt. (I got loads of compliments on it, which I was gracious about but it was bittersweet.) I told JAR that the shirt was ita's and that our community members were allowed by the family to have certain fannish items as remembrances, and he seemed really impressed by our...I dunno, humanity and closeness and courtesy as a fandom community. I didn't have the money for a photo or an autograph, and I felt it COMPLETELY INAPPROPRIATE to ask, so there's no photographic evidence.

I'm utterly fine about that, because I was lucky enough to be able to represent the Buffistas for ita's sake with dignity and courtesy and grace.

I nominate Strix to join the Beautiful Hair Club.

Oh Strix, my heart is full.

Tim posted the Out of Gas script.

"It is possible we might have something that'd do you. We just come from a big salvage job off ita moon. Picked the bones'a half a dozen junk heaps not unlike the one you're sittin' in."

She was the center. That's where the little catalyzer nothing part came from that saved the ship. ita moon wasn't just some generic space entity, she was the source of rescue.

I told JAR that the shirt was ita's and that our community members were allowed by the family to have certain fannish items as remembrances, and he seemed really impressed by our...I dunno, humanity and closeness and courtesy as a fandom community.

Her earrings make me stronger, every time I wear them. They remind me that I am not alone and she is not all of the way gone and we all exist together.

I hadn't full-out bawled, for a while. I guess it was time.

Every time I wish I had asked for a momento, I remind myself I have a Supernatural hex bag direct from her. Even has a plastic shoe for the one Sammy lost. And salt.