I have been distracted from the job hunt by writing strongly worded letters to my doctor's office. It's true I can't manage my health and my job concurrently, but I think a lot of that is on my doctor, not even on my health.

Still back to aggressive job hunting tomorrow.

Big girls don't cry, right?

So Monday, a level3 vp told our director and NASA that CSC wasn't on the market. Tuesday, the biz journals are abuzz with CSC seeking out Lockheed and Blackthorn, etc... For a buyout.

I can't even. I don't know all the variations on my options. Maybe if I can get myself fired by CSC, work won't have to adhere to the mou on rehiring CSC people? Maybe a buyout would nullify our contract? We don't fucking know.

I'm hoping hoping the coming weeks bring some clarity. Work knows that those who can fly will come Jan 1 and those indispensable will demand something they can't refuse. I'm not one of those categories. I'm part of a renew contract thru 2015. Barring buyout nullification, or something.

I hate this. I do love my job, just hate my employers.

Crap, sarameg, what a nightmare. I'm so sorry.

I don't even know what to say, sarameg. I suppose I shouldn't be shocked, but I am. Good luck.

dammit, Sarameg. I'm sorry. This is fuckery.

ita, I think your healthcare providers are causing you additional stress absolutely. I hate that they do and wish they would focus on helping you rather than hindering you.

Sarameg, are they not allowed to rehire if you get a job inbetween?

And they told me I didn't get the job. I guess that's better than talking to my references and then saying "Nope.

Definitely! And better than saying they're going to contact your references and then just never talking to you again, sadly.

I emailed with several of my coworkers, all of whom are SO OVER our boss. And sent a (very toned-down from what I wanted to say) response to the boss. Doesn't help I've had a headache all day.

I just watched "How to Get Away With Murder" and damn, Shonda, I love ya and all, but some of that was just ridiculous. Even I, as a person not intending to ever go to law school, know more than some of these supposed first-year law students. Or lawyers. I do like most of the law student characters, so far, but damn they're dumb.

It sounds like lots of people had shitty days yesterday. I cut myself off from social media about 6, had wine, and binge-watched Dollhouse.

I have been awake since 2am thanks to insomnia, and currently hate everyone and every thing, especially my immediate family. Not because they've done anything to deserve it, mind you, just because I hate everything right now.

That sucks, Burrell. Can you have some quiet time today?

I hope so, Jesse. The trick is to manage to also find time for grading and laundry and TCB. Will probably put the handling of actually onerous stuff off until tomorrow.