It 8:30 and though I has a 2 hr break at the pool, I just finished working. I left when things stalled out , got back from pool to a work laptop imitating a brick. Spent 45 minutes on that and called on for the last 15 ,invites oh a 2 hr conference/troubleshooting call.

So done. Maybe can eat dinner now....

Fuck autocomplete.

So nice to be on a real keyboard again for the first time in weeks. Love my iPad but don't love typing on it (but adding a keyboard seems to make it take up as much space/weigh as much as a laptop, in my brain).

I took an hour nap, but am still fighting to stay awake for another hour or three. I'm hungry but don't want to put real clothes on and walk to the store. Also, my roommate seems to have entirely filled the fridge and freezer, so there is nowhere to put anything. And if some of it is mine, I haven't been home in two and a half weeks and don't remember!

Meara, how long were you gone? It seemed like your trip was awesomely extensive.

And now something broke that was working earlier. I can't.

I left the Saturday of Labor Day weekend (and got to Prague Sunday night, so didn't actually DO anything until Labor Day) and got back today (though I pretty much stopped all touristing on Sunday--took a train from Krakow to Warsaw, passed out in my hotel for 12 hours, got coffee, went to the airport and flew home for two days). It was pretty awesome! Other than the sad but expected confirmation that my brother is in fact a racist jackass. (He lives in the Czech Republic, so I was vaguely visiting him)

Question in re: racist jackass relative: so, he is very aware that my sister and I strongly strongly disagree with him on....just about everything. And after a bunch of the stuff he said (even WHILE we were really really trying not to get into it!) I would totally be peacing out on his ass. Except I worry that he will have children. And then if I had totally cut ties (or even just seriously told his ass off), I wouldn't be able to properly influence them. On the other hand, these are still hypothetical future children (who he and I were discussing when some of his most jackassery was put in words). Thoughts?

These are fun: Unsatisfied Women in Western Art History

Ever wonder why women are often unhappy in classic paintings?

My gut reaction is that the kids will be happier to be raised to be jackasses, rather than grow up in a family that is a tug-of-war of ideals and loyalties. Also, kids of jackasses can turn out okay. And maybe your peace-outing isn't the end that it seems now. And maybe these kids never do get born. And maybe your leaving now does nothing to change the jackasses life for the good or ill, or maybe it does.

You can't know.

And my opinion means shite, but do what is best for your health and those you love. You can't control everything. Especially an unknown future.

Now, I only wish that I could walk away from my own jackass if it wouldn't also mean walking away from my mother and father (it seems to be a paradox of emotion).

I'm stuck in trying to find the best way to deal with jackassness and I just can't find a good solution. KCD is the issue. One child refuses to deal with him based on the way he treated her while the other child still has a good relationship with him. I want to rip him over the way he is dealing (or not dealing) with the one without causing ripples with the other, so instead I'm doing nothing which also feels wrong.

Long story short - no easy answer.

Dinner finally eaten. I think everything is working.