Note to self: more responsibility means they like you. It is not the universe saying "Let's give her another opportunity to fail and look like an idiot."
Note to self: more responsibility means they like you. It is not the universe saying "Let's give her another opportunity to fail and look like an idiot."
I'm going through the same thing. We should start a club! (My boss told me today it usually takes editors 18 months to get totally up to speed on all the style points. The AMA style manual is an actual published hardbound book and it is enormous.) So all my articles come back with lots of feedback pointing out where I missed stuff. So frustrating. But then my boss says "Good job!" and gives me longer stuff to edit. So...I know she has faith in me and believes I can do it. But it *feels* like an opportunity to fail and look like an idiot.
Today is my six year work anniversary and I still feel like that sometimes.
I so envy people who get tossed new and complicated situations and are excited by the opportunity rather than horrified at the potential for catastrophe.
I've worked here for eight years, and the company keeps evolving and adding things that tech support is responsible for, and I hate change.
I so envy people who get tossed new and complicated situations and are excited by the opportunity rather than horrified at the potential for catastrophe.
Or who at the very least can say it with a straight face.
Ugh. I've been dealing with the fact that apparently sometime in early August I had a complete brain meltdown and didn't even realize it? I sent a bunch of letters with big errors (like the wrong date of what the letter was about), no signatures, or completely forgot to send them (which is a big deal, both of those things, because our signatures are digital, so if you do it late, it says "signed on [date after the thing you were sending the letter about already happened]"). Normally I don't do this at ALL, and instead i had I think FOUR different instances where I had to be like "Um, hi, can you also file this revised version?"
Timelies all!
Getting readjusted to being back a)in this time zone and b) at work. So far so good.
Oh, meara, ugh. Yeah, sometimes you look at yourself and wonder if there's a multiple personality taking control occasionally.