OK, so being unemployed, I have jack shit to do today but hang out and feel like I'm around my peeps. Sorry for the whole thing where for ages, you'll only see me in the fanfic thread. My job sort of did a number on my ability to can, and I see a few hundred messages in Natter and go all, "ACK! CAN'T CATCH UP!"
Or, worse, I just lurk because I think I'm going to say something stupid.
Scola, if you would like another reason to dislike my former company, I can give you a zillion! Ahem.
Note: this is also how my TV viewing has been going.
Anyhow, I'm emotionally in a much better place than I was when I was working, except for that pesky lack of a paycheck thing, but I still get overwhelmed easily. So it's probably better if I stay here, and keep caught up, right?
Cause what I'm trying to say is, I've missed you guys. I've missed us. I wouldn't be where I am today (which, OK, is sitting in my chair in PJs with a cup of coffee, but I don't mean literally) without you. I found this place when I needed a home, when my meatspace friend circle was dissolving into a puddle of growing apart and moving away. I was, well, unemployed and spending all my time in jammies with a cup of coffee, so that's the same, but I've got you guys now.
I found fandom, proper, non-douchey guy fandom (I went to my first con at 16, so I knew from the douchefans), though you. I started writing fiction because of you (it seemed polite, OK? all these people who were writing wonderful stuff, and I felt I should contribute), I grew close to Jilli because of you, I embraced media analysis because of you.
Almost all my best friends, even if I didn't meet them here, I met because of you.
Hell, I got on an airplane for the first time since 1991 because of you.
So to sum up the tl;dr, I love you guys. You matter. You're important.
And I should say that more often.
Because it's true.
Major Plei huggage. I could've written so much of that myself.
Remember when so many of us were on AIM and actually got to have real-time conversations? I keep thinking how I've forgotten how to use IM outside of work.
Oh, Plei. I think that's true for a lot of us. Thank you for articulating it so well..
I love all of you. I love this place. It's home, and always will be.
Coincidentally, I just registered Casper for her first Fan Event. She's buying Marissa Meyer's new book Fairest and getting it signed by the author, after a dress-up party at the bookstore. She is planning to dress as "Cress when her hair was short." It's been fanart vs. homework for days and the event's not until the 31st, so it's going to get worse.
Buffistas: The Next Generation - reporting strong.
I remember trying to explain you guys via the Buff Diver.
Which... I'm not entirely sure it worked, but hey.
Plei has started my allergies up again. It really is so good to see so many people posting here again after so long, although I would do anything for it not to be under these circumstances. Even those of you that I see on other social media it's different seeing you here again.
I finally caught up here. I have an emotional hang over and am feeling like the hair of the dog is already at work. More sad than anything. CJ hadn't left for school yet when I told him a buffista had died. He asked who and when I told him, he was all "Nooooooooooooo". He has never met her or read her pixels but knew that this was wronger than a wrong thing that is wrong.
I haven't caught up in the ita thread yet. I need to concentrate on work for a bit and fake my way through a conference call I'm supposed to be leading. I already rescheduled it from yesterday, so I have to power through.
I miss you too, Plei, and I thought of you when you were scarcer around here. I mean, I was scarcer around here too. So it's totally ok to do that, but it's also totally ok to be here, and you're not going to say something stupid. Or, you will, and we'll all laugh or ignore it or whatever, and it'll be fine.
