The "house that ita built" made me cry. It's perfect.
Yeah. In the Muslim conception of creation, God doesn't just build the universe and leave it to run. Every moment requires an ongoing, conscious act of creation to sustain it. I felt much the same way about ita and the Phoenix board. I mean, the board is here, and still running; but she was such a constant and prolific presence here, she felt like the board's sustaining spirit.
Oh Maria, I am so sorry! Much love and many hugs for you both. (Well, you can pass on the ones to him from me, okay?) I truly believe that organ donors are superheroes, and they leave a gift that's selfless and amazing.
Maria, extra peace and love to you and your BF. Also more love and peace to Joe and all who love your grandmother.
Jesus Christ, MM I am so sorry. This month is on my shit list.
Thank you all. It's just surviving at this point.
And I'm sorry for you, Maria.
It never rains but it pours, eh?
Now...WHO PUT THE FUCKING SEWER IN THE SKY? I'ma kick some "heavenly" civil engineer's ASS all the way to FuckYouton.
Maria, Joe, I'm so sorry.
Joe's grandmother is getting moved to hospice ASAP. She's basically given up and will not be with us for much longer, we suspect.
So much love and comfort to you guys right now.
Maria and Joe I'm so sorry.
Fucking fuckity fuck fucking FUCK day. I've now cycled back around the anger and wanting to rain down vengence and brimstone on everyone. Especially the fucking doctors who acted like fucking jerks to ita.
I don't want anyone to die or suffer or have to feel this gnawing pain.
I know how grief works but I also know that some time down the line I'm going to see pink gingham and start crying. Or someone one is going to make a blockbuster movie with a kickass herione where the actress can both act AND kickass without stunt doubles AND hold a gun well and I'm going to watch it and think NOW! You motherfuckers made this NOW! Why couldn't you have made this when ita could have appreciated it.