Bev, thank you and JZ for letting me know. I hadn't spoken with her for a couple of months. I'm not really at the point of comprehending that I never will again.

The final Kinkaid will be dedicated to her. They wouldn't exist without her.

Fly free, superwoman. You will be all the way missed.

I'm just catching up on Natter on a train. Im just in total shock here.

I hope wherever she is right now she's kravving the living hell out of someone, just for fun.

On the bus coming in - I was thinking that I'd like to beat something up myself. I'm so sad and angry at the same time.

I'm heartbroken. The world is a sadder place today.

Sue O let me know this terrible, terrible news. I haven't posted here in years but I felt I needed to reach out and share my condolences. I'm very sad that I never got to meet ita in person.

A light has indeed gone out in this world. Much love to all whose hearts are aching now.

Kettlebells. Along with kravving I hope ita is doing kettlebells. That's something else she dearly missed being able to do.

So much love to everyone here, and especially to all the LAistas who cared for her with all your hearts and all your strength and every ER trip and food run and all of it. And a hearty FUCK YOU to every so-called healthcare provider who put roadblocks between ita and pain relief. Not to be in pain is such a small thing to want in this hard awful world. Fuck you all.

All her artwork. All her photos. Provocateuse and barefoot men and fierce gorgeous women. All the crinolines and stompy boots and the binder she wanted to get but hadn't yet. All the people at iO9. ita, no. Please.

JZ, I'm glad you're here to put into words what I'm feeling.

How do I feel so broken over someone I never had the opportunity to meet in person? Fuck you to anyone who says you can't make true connections with someone you know only online. And FUCK YOU to the medical pain management establishment.

::tears::