ION, I've been really depressed lately. Like the most depressed I've been in decades. Just getting up and going to work is a huge drain on me.

It's just been a shitty year for me. Also, my ADs generally lose effectiveness after a year and a half, and it's been a year and a half since my last change of meds. So I'm in the process of switching to a different med which should hopefully start taking effect in a month or two.

My anxiety's been very bad too, so my Dr. prescribed some relative of Xanax which has helped a lot. It's so nice to have a break from the ever-present anxiety.

Our family had our x-mas gathering 10 days ago so I don't have to worry about x-mas stuff anymore, so that reduction of anxiety is nice. Plus passing the Winter Solstice cheers me up a little.

Casper officially has the flu! She cried and cried because she feels like she ruined Christmas. We haven't told her that her diagnosis probably means that mr. flea's parents won't come see us tomorrow. I get that they are 75 and protective of their health, but I'm still kind of pissed off at them. She's gonna cry more, poor mite.

Wanting to get off a drug, is what I'm wanting. Doctor agreed. thank goodness He is wearing Superman socks. I like him. Now I just have to finish up wrapping presents and drive to Newport News. Will be glad when the holidays are over and life can get back to normal.

Goodness, that's a round of suck.

Wishing calm for Zen, and an extra dose for Tom, health for Casper and solace for Connie, and relaxation for askye and all the other harried parties.

anxiety and associated symptoms went away as soon as I talked to the doctor. Oh my god, body, you're so predictable and easily manipulated. That's just embarrassing.

That's just embarrassing.

Nope, it's a Festivus miracle. It's good!

I have to say that when I was stressing and bemoaning Emmett's present not arriving and Matilda telling him that his other package would arrive late, he'd just cheerfully shrug and say "That's okay!" and still bounce around with an eager-for-Christmas spirit.

anxiety and associated symptoms went away as soon as I talked to the doctor.

That's great! Yay for a doctor you can like.

I hope changing meds is easy and effective, tommyrot, and that solstice/xmas pressure easing up helps meanwhile.

My lunch won't happen, people have to rush off to do family things, but we are getting breakfast takeout, so that'll be good.

I have both desserts for tomorrow baked, dishes are washed and put away, I am showered, and we don't leave for my mom's for 2 more hours. Moar teevee, pls.

Wishing calm for Zen, and an extra dose for Tom, health for Casper and solace for Connie, and relaxation for askye and all the other harried parties.

I've got my calm back, thank you. Passing on the ~ma to everyone else. May we all get through the holidays with a minimum of stress and a maximum of joy.

Two more days and life gets back to normal. I swear to Thor, next year I'm buying and wrapping all my Christmas gifts in June. (Notice how I swore that oath to a god who wouldn't give a crap if I broke it.)

I am running behind. shocker.

1 dessert done. Banana bread muffins baking (I had thawed bananas taking up space in the fridge so had to use them). Pie crust dough chilling, and yes I told it "you must CHILL" when I put it into the fridge.

still need to wrap 3 things, make pumpkin pie, make buttermilk pie, and go to the grocery store because I need eggs and cranberries. I had really wanted to make sugar cookies, but make that will be Christmas Day after presents.

We are spending the night at mom and dads, so we will all be in one place, and I am singing at a 7pm service, soooo, I need to have things done here by 5pm so I can get ready, get the car packed and be on time. The goal had been to get over to m&d's this afternoon, but that's not happening.