I got to work this morning and wanted to light the world on fire. Then I made myself go meditate for 15 minutes, and that got me through a couple of hours. I just pulled myself back from another rage bender. Maybe it's time for lunch.

I am so on the edge of that right now. It will be a miracle if I make it to the end of the week.

Ah ha ha -- the meeting that I had instead of going to most of my department potluck gave me a rage attack. I'm actually doing OK, generally, so should be able to walk back from it enough to write the follow-up email.

I am just trying to focus on doing tasks that will get physical papers off my desk. These may not be the most important tasks, but I need the mess gone.

I am just trying to focus on doing tasks that will get physical papers off my desk

Scissors, I'm just saying.

Today I search my apartment and shred old/unwanted paper. I've already filled one shopping bag with my version of snow, as well as messed up the carpet with it.

I'm just out of the revision cave / hiding in GWW / lurking and wanted to send you hugs and hope that tonight sleeps easier, sinuses calm down, work gets better, and people do right by my buffistas in 2015.

Sparky, I saw your note in beep and I cannot thank you enough. I'm very lucky to have a cousin as wonderful as you.

Today is actually (so far cross your fingers) going pretty well for me, work-wise at least. Ideally I'd be told I get to go to a training tomorrow that right now I'm not supposed to (but "not supposed to go" is still better than "supposed to lead it and write the report about it before I go on vacation, while using a new system"). And I seem to have worked it out with folks that I will NOT be going to Kansas, Nebraska, and Texas in January, but instead just California and Arizona and Nevada. Whew.

I'd prefer if my personal life were a little better, but ah well.

I feel both smart and dumb. For months now, I've been having the symptoms of tendonitis in my ankles. It became bad over the summer, and I thought it was because of the sandals I was wearing. Turns out, not so much. Then I finally noticed that when I'm sitting at my desk at work, I'm bracing my feet hard against the floor, because the desks here at the new building are higher than the old ones, so I have to have my desk chair higher, so my feet don't rest flat on the floor. A foot rest hasn't helped, because they're too narrow and they put stress on my knees.

So I've finally dropped the chair so my feet rest unbraced on the floor, and I'm working on the angles of my monitors. And my ankles no longer make me limp when I stand up.

Yay, logical deduction, no matter how long delayed!

Can you get/make an ad hoc footrest? I used all sorts of weird things in my last job, to get the dimensions right.

I hate tweaking monitor angles beyond a very small range. I always mess up.

Taking away the stand the monitor had been on did the trick for me. I was afraid I was going hurt myself leaping up on to my chair when I had it raised and used a footrest, bfore I got a keyboard tray.

Half my department got taken out to lunch for winning the pumpkin carving contest at Halloween. The rest of us decided we'd get Buffalo Wild Wings for ourselves as a consolation prize. Such a good decision!