And now I feel worse.

It seems very unfair that I can't just spend my life lying on the couch watching TV. I realize that's not technically sustainable in the long term, but I could at least try.

AKA, "how does a child molester win $3 million in the lottery and I don't"?

I too am not feeling any love for the world. I don't feel Christmasy, we don't even have the tree up. My parents are stupidly hard to buy for and my brother suggested stopping presents all together. I have all this stuff I want to do, like chores need doing and fixit stuff and the decorating - just stuff in all categories - and then I also just want to sit and watch tv.

maybe if I put some stuff here I will shame myself.

Tonight I need to:

clean litter
deposit checks
pack up ebay things to ship
maybe find Holiday cards - or -
get tree out and assembled

I need to go over to Dad's place and put up Christmas decorations. But not tonight.

My office was pretty dead today, but there was a blood drive so I did a good thing.

Probably shouldn't have had two glasses of wine tonight, though.

Oh, and hey, I'm 50 yesterday. Which is weird. I don't feel half a century old.

Happy day after your birthday, 'Suela! I hope this is the start of a great decade for you.

Work is kicking my ass this week. Not quite to the point of tears but it was a near thing a few times today. I am thinking I will go straight to happy hour when I am done with the office tomorrow.

Happy birthday yesterday, Consuela.

My mood has been swinging rapidly from Fuck Everything And Its Horse to Life Is Good Look Birdies! for over a week now. I don't feel depressed but I'm still kinda acting depressed, what's up with that. And I really don't want to deal with the holidays. Next week I go on vacation, driving 8 hours both ways, to spend almost a week with my BFF and her teenage daughter, and lord, I don't want to. I want to see them, but I don't want to spend that much time away from my home and in someone else's. And my feet have been so swollen and numb and achy, I really don't want to go on a long drive. It will be utter misery if the doctor can't fix them. And then Christmas with my family, we'll only have one day that everyone's together, and I should be sad we don't have more time instead of feeling like why are we even bothering. Ugh. So not in the festive spirit. I guess I'll just get drunk a lot.

Shared on fb, but needs to be here too: [link]

I've always wanted a fancy dress of Hubble images. I've got ones in mind. Not that I'm getting a Nobel ever or anything.

That dress is so cool!

Congrats Anne....

No news, ita? That sucks.

Okay, people, I have a gigantic favor to ask. If you have any college t-shirts floating around that might fight a sorta busty large woman and you want to get rid of them, I will happily take them. My school does college shirt day on Wednesdays which also makes college shirts a reason to wear jeans. I would love any and all colleges (because UCLA/USC is not mind opening enough). I'd love to get your old college shirts.

Yeah, Sara, since the designer was named Hubble I thought maybe it was going there...