lcat, that's my day pretty much every day.

Suzi, so many times.

It's terrifying that I do it at all considering how much I post, but yes, often, open a posting box only to close it up.

I went off both bc and my anti-anxiety/ads over a month ago. Just did it on my own, tired of being on so many mess. I think it is ok, I think I just need changes in my life. As with most things, unsure what to change or how to do it.

I should have gotten up early to get to work early because I'm leaving early to meet friends for dinner and Big Hero Six, but I'm paralyzed with not caring very much.

Suzi, have I mentioned that my dad has taught fire science courses to firefighters? Let me know if you want to get CJ in touch with him.

I think it is ok, I think I just need changes in my life. As with most things, unsure what to change or how to do it.

I recently had the epiphany that a new lawn mower would, in fact, make my life better so it was okay to buy one. Probably one of my least profound epiphanies but had that same rush of Truth.

Went and picked up breakfast for the department. Makes me feel better anyway.

-t, I didn't know that. I'll ask CJ if he is interested. He likes my help, but only when he is ready to accept help. All other times, I'm thouroghly rebuffed.

Suzi, looking ahead, keep in mind that colleges have resources for students with ADD (including extra time for tests, etc), so when CJ starts, he should hook up with whatever department/office/whatever manages those things.

That will be a topic when we talk with the advisor. But good reminder Teppy. I need to start a list of questions. His meeting is Dec 3rd, so we have a bit to get prepared.

I see snowflakes. Do not approve.

How many times have y'all wrote out a post. Read through it and then just deleted instead of posting?

Hells to the yeah.

Is Pedialyte sweet? I worry that I spiked my headache with the sugar in the Gatorade, but after another night ($$$!) in the ER, it's under control.

Kids, taper, don't cold turkey. Also, don't let them prescribe you narcotics. On the other hand...my head did hurt kinda less. We'll see. My doc dialled down the replacement medication (OTC NasalCrom!) because it might be giving me anxiety side effects, so I'm pretty much floating on just the one med.

Mentally I feel much better off them, though. The issue is catching up physically, which I think I've just about accomplished. Yesterday I didn't know if I could brain and talk coherently, so I postponed a meeting with a recruiter until today. Except--I was in such bad shape I don't remember who when or where! Jesus. QED, tho.

Polgara is a superhero!

Mos Def.

Speaking of which, he had a crush on one of my cousins, and apparently one of his songs is about her. That side of the family, man. That's the side that dated Van Peebles (pere, not fils).

I still have a Google alert for my old company, and ouch! Despite all the changes they made to IT, apparently they made news with tech failures when they had to onboard their new sister companies. Now, I wish I had *a* job, but I'm not quite as salty about not having *that* one anymore. I am also stalking co-workers via LinkedIn to see who's still there. Some good people are gone, including the CEO. And some people I swear were inept are still there. Or don't obsess over LinkedIn's accuracy.

I see snowflakes. Do not approve.

For a heartbeat I wanted to move back to the UK. Then I remembered those. Not want.

If you could move anywhere, where would you go? And still work and stuff (if you have the kept woman hookup, pls to supply). Very few places, for me.

Will I be able to draw US social security if I don't live here? Like, if I'm still a citizen (no plans on fracking that) but live in Jamaica? I just got my annual "here's how little you'll have" and it's not that little when you convert it to our pretty paper. And that is my current retirement plan. Maybe I will co-locate or something.