Burrell, it's ok dammit. This is the place--the only place--I ever voiced the infidelity, the money issues. And the realization that I was no longer in love with him. If you're a bad person, then I'm going to hell for sure.

And even day after the birthday is bad. I hope she holds out long enough for some distance to meaningful dates.

Burrell, what they all said. Vent as you need to. Please don't be upset with yourself for what you're feeling. It's normal, and you're not a bad person, not at all. It's so very hard to go through this, and to watch people you love go through it. Like JZ said. It's nothing but hard.

I do appreciate that I can vent here, even if I vent out in my meatspace as well. It's just hard.

I hope she holds out long enough for some distance to meaningful dates.

Ugh. I hope so too. October is a land mine for the family. There was my sister Becca's birthday on the 14th, then mine, and now Becca's daughter's birthday is coming up this week. But it might be too much, asking her to hold on another week.

I just feel so bad for her. It's such an ugly way to go. But there is some grace there too. She is getting to bask in a lot of love right now. Many of the folks she pushed away over the years are coming now to see her. It's touching, and sad, and kind of beautiful.

It's touching, and sad, and kind of beautiful.

I can't think of a better valedictory.

Yay for getting to see loved ones before you pass. I would hope for that.

Oh wait, need to count a few blessings: 1) kids have been very affectionate and snuggly, 2) best husband on Earth.

Aw. Yay kids and hubby.

In completely other news...I finished my dress! It took me about 20-ish hours, and probably half that time was spent seam-ripping, but I have a dress! That can in theory be worn! I think I'm going to take it on my trip this week, but I'm a little worried I'll put it on and realize there's magically a gaping hole, or it exposes my belly or something. So I'll probably bring backup. But still! Now I want to make it again, now that I know better how to do it. Though I don't really need two dresses in that same pattern/style, but whatever.

msbelle will sell the other for you on ebay.

I just feel so bad for her. It's such an ugly way to go. But there is some grace there too. She is getting to bask in a lot of love right now. Many of the folks she pushed away over the years are coming now to see her. It's touching, and sad, and kind of beautiful.

Honestly, I sometimes think that's "why" we die - to heal a thousand other wounds.

Though I don't really need two dresses in that same pattern/style, but whatever.

Different fabric! Different color! If the thing looks rockin' on you make TEN of em!

I'm so sorry, Burrell.

Burrell, I'm sorry. Getting some accommodation from work sounds like a great idea.

Thanks for the birthday wishes, everyone!