so apparently my parents are planning on moving out of Texas when they downsize. This is why they keep saying they'll probably stay in their (way too big) house until E graduates high school.
Why the hell couldn't they move before I left NY? I could have avoided moving back to Texas.
So yes, I am neck deep in a resentment pool of bad mood. They have never been the steady source of support/help with E that I have wanted or needed. I have to ask every single time I want anything which is exhausting and also completely demoralizing for me.
I am not at all doing well with just accepting where I am and finding a way to be happy. I hate where I am. The people I get along with here I hardly ever get to see. People like Daisy who I would love to hang out with are too far away to easily see and life and schedules and fuck all.
I'm so sorry, msbelle. I would be resentful, too. Would it be terrible for you to move now/soon?
Catching up on Grey's. That was
quite a bombshell at the end. And a nice sendoff - I was really afraid they were gonna pull a ghost Yang. It'll be interesting to see if I still like this show next season with all the cast changes. Kevin McKidd can sure show a lot of emotion around a surgical mask.
Oh, msbelle, so frustrating. Come to Colorado?
Today has been a struggle just to keep plodding. My mouth still hurts - sore from the root canal, sore from something else, and I haven't found the balance of pain meds to dull the pain but not make me loopy. Tomorrow I head out to SLC for my monthly trip. Traveling and mouth pain just make me anxious. Leaving the house to run errands took every ounce of functioning I had. And I'm working today to make up for the work I won't be able to do while I'm in SLC.
The kitties have been supportive at least.
Ugh, msbelle. Are you committed to seeing E through HS there?
That's hard, msbelle. It's sad that they haven't been the support you imagined, anyway.
Oh msbelle. That's tough. Are you thinking of moving?
I will not move E again. He is happy.
Who knows what my reality will be in 5 more years? So while I assume I will move to wherever my heart desires, who knows? I'll be 48 and will have to consider what looking for a job in a new place would be like. It all just sucks.
Customer: The file closed, and when I reopened it, all my work is gone. Get it back!
Me: was there an error? Is it in the recycle bin?
Customer: No. Get it back, I spent an hour and a half on it!
Me: When it closed, was there a message asking you to save the file?
Customer: Yeah, I said no.
Me: ....
Customer: Autosave will have a copy, right?
Me: ....
That 's hard, msbelle. I'm sorry. I hope where you are gets better, somehow.
