I had a whole plan today, and it basically fell apart--I was going to get up, go to the movies down by the mall, go shopping for patio furniture, come home, and then go to the dance lessons and dance after. And work out at some point.
Instead I woke up early, didn't hear from either of the people supposed to go to the movies with me, so went to a slightly later movie downtown, instead of by the mall, and then talked to my brother for a while after, which meant by the time I was on the road towards the mall, I realized I only had about 2 hours before I had to leave for the dance lessons. So I turned around and went to Goodwill, got home and could've scrambled for the dance lessons, started to, scarfed down food, and then said screw it and will just go to the dance instead.
Sorry for the delete. Stupid melodramatic ranty stuff. My stepbro died yesterday, and I'm conflicted on stuff, but he's a public-ish figure, so I shouldn't really put anything "out there". Hence the delete.
I figured it might have something to do with that.
I saw the full post, Polgara. It's hard when feelings are complicated. Especially when there's nowhere you can really talk about them and work them out.
Don't mind me, I just have to call my therapist.
Oh Polgara, I am so so sorry. Please feel free to call or email me if you need a sounding board. Believe you me, I know what it's like to lose someone and be left with mostly conflicted feelings and no straightforward path to mourn. Happy to be an ear, or hey, maybe an invite out for a drink and a bit of distraction. Either way.
People in my family die all the freaking time
Also familiar with that one. After a certain point, it starts to get in the way of dealing with it instead of making it easier.
I have not seen you in forever, chica, we should totally have a drink!
