Whaaaaat? I don't even understand why Old Boss is still there!

Meanwhile, I really need to get off my ass and get shit done today--I did very minimal amounts of actual work yesterday. And stayed up too late reading a book (but it was a good book!)

It is sunny and blue skies here today, so I feel like I should go outside and do something, but I have no idea what. Plus, y'know, that whole "I should be working" thing. Guess I really need to get going on planning some patio furniture for my patio so I can start working out there when it's warm enough.

I am excited because I am here ALL next week, so I bought food at the grocery store. Like, real food not just snacks. I am going to attempt to recreate the Trader Joe's Kale and Broccoli Slaw salad, because while it is delicious, the dressing is almost as many calories as the rest of the salad, and full of mayo. Copycats online suggest greek yogurt base.

No yelling!

Sometime between falling asleep last night and waking up this morning, I have gotten a cold. I also got my period. Today is unfun. I am shivering in my office with the door closed and a shawl, and I want to go home.

I don't understand yelling in general. I mean, I get how it works and the need to do it. But in a work sitch, it means, to my midwestern viewpoint, that you have lost control.

I lose control all the time. I am a yeller. But this guy needs to understand that he needs to back off all his former employees. We are all very much wanting to throw in his face that he is NOT OUR BOSS ANYMORE. To not have the self-awareness to know that you need to be away for a bit is remarkable to me.

Happy belated, Scola! I was not keeping track, because I had no idea you were older than me.

Fitbit still missing. I'm so mad at myself.

I'm also mad at myself for the amount of pain I woke up in--too much to drive, and I'm only working one project and attending one meeting today. I figure if you wake up with a tremor, don't drive.

People are leaving my boss out of things deliberately, and I'm bearing the brunt of it, it seems. It's hard to tell. We're very insulated. I hear things the people three levels above me in the org chart, and there's no indication that us and them have anything in common.

Okay, time for second breakfast. I'm trying to make a commitment to fruit salad.

Fruit salad is good stuff.

I have a meeting in 5 minutes, which is too early to call in, but I suspect I'll look up in ten minutes and go "oh crap"! OK, timer set.

Next question: So, I really really liked the haircut that Mac had in the Veronica Mars movie. But all the pictures I can find of it either aren't in closeup or are when she had it up and pouffed. There were a few scenes where you could definitely see the haircut more down, but there don't seem to be pictures. Any helpful suggestions? If I bought the movie, how would I make a screenshot of that particular moment on my screen, if I wanted to have screenshots to take to the hairdresser? (This is still a "maybe in a couple months" theoretical)

I lose control all the time. I am a yeller

Hence coxswain.

But for me in the classroom, I HATE letting the students know that they have gotten to me. Whenever kids say I am mean, I point out I rarely raise my voice. I do say mean cutting things instead, but it's a cold anger.

I sent an IM to someone on a call this morning congratulating him on responding to something that came up without the use of the words "ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?"

I yell at my kids, but never at work. And I'm working on yelling less at my kids.

I think I may have yelled at people occasionally as a small child. But I can't think of any time where I've yelled at someone since.