This weekend, our WHOLE UNIVERSITY will be powered down TWICE. Once to put the whole campus on generator power, on Saturday morning. And then again on Monday morning, to return us to the grid. As such, we are taking the precaution, to unplug as much of our gear as possible. Given that there are seven venues, that are in use today/tonight... something is bound to not get unplugged. A lot of it is in the students hands. To say I'm a bit anxious, is an understatement.

Buckets of ~ma to you, sj! IVF is a lot to take in, but just take it one day at a time. My DW got really good at the shots and they weren't bad pain-wise. I was worried about the belly ones, but I barely felt them. Are you doing progesterone shots, too? If so, I found it best to ice the area before the shot and apply heat after (to spread the oil around rather than have it be a lump under the skin). Ping me if I can help in any way. SQUEEING for you!

Glam, I am definitely planning on emailing you. There are three different types of shots, but I have to look over my notes to remember what they are, along with BCP (which is too funny) and maybe a couple other drugs. It was a lot to take in. We're starting next cycle because I'm having my surgery on Tuesday.

I was at the doctor's again today because I was having a problem with my foot. I'm being refered to a podiatrist because I don't already have enough doctors.

I realized I have not been back in Bitches since the end of December. I thought I had been in here since then, but I have not. I was reading up on all the stuff that's happened since then, and caught that a few people were asking after me.

First, I'm sorry I haven't been back sooner.

As for an update....

I have a temporary roommate, for a couple of months. I have also picked up four days of work at the theatre in Beverly Hills that I applied to last summer to be their Sound Supervisor. So on those two areas, there's at least some temporary relief.

I've applied to many multiple jobs, and heard nothing back from any of them. I've poured over hundreds of job listings, searching for something I might qualify for, but was only able to find a few to apply to. And have heard nothing back yet.

My mother and several other people suggested I go back to school and finally get a Bachelor's, or even an Associate's, so I applied to LA City college and got accepted, and applied for financial aid, but I have screwed up this whole process royally, and it's unclear if I'll be able to get FA this semester, which would pretty much kill the whole thing. I'm enrolled, and school starts on Monday, but I don't know what I'm going to do for books, and I don't know how I'm going to pay rent or eat without working.

So, I don't know, the more effort I try to put into finding a way out of this mess, the more overwhelming it becomes.

But, I'm still here, and still trying, but I'm so far beyond burnt out, I just can't even say. I need some stability before I can build my own stability, and much of the time, I feel incapable of making choices. Just being faced with a choice is overwhelming.

Anyway, despite all of that, my thoughts are going out to so many other people in tough times, too.

Hey Sean. Good to see your pixels. I know of the overwhelming. All I have to offer is take one day at a time. Even one hour at a time.

Maybe make lists, prioritize, consider who can help you with school and other needs. Maybe there are social service type programs that may be able to help? Like similar to food stamps except school stamps.

At any rate, hugs. You are in my thoughts.

I've been doing a lot of lists and writing things down. It's very alarming when I do it, because it sort of solidifies just how screwed I am, but I keep doing it. One foot in front of the other, you know? I'm making some appointments for school counseling for next week. So that should provide some guidance.

See if the required text books are in the library. Maybe you can check them out? Or digital copies that you could download? If it's lit classes, a lot of the old, non copyright books are on Project Gutenberg.

Well done, Miracleman!

Yay! Well done, MM indeed!

Woo hoo MM!

Ya know, i've never had to pair up vicodin with benadryl before today (itchy) and am feeling shockingly loopy and nauseated. Boo. On the bright side, I'm ready to wager that my mystery undiagnosable pain is mostly definitely muscular as walking to work in the snow tomorrow ratcheted up the pain to previously unknown levels. And the vicodin is working on the pain, so that's good. Had to call in sick to work today since walking even to the bus stop at the end of the block is right out of the question. Especially on a big sheet of ice (no love to you, "ice pellets"). It's finally above freezing so I'm cheering on the melting. Go melting! Come on melting! Clear my street to a driveable level before it gets dark and all ices over tomorrow! Go melting! You can do it!

In related news, I'm pondering leasing a different kind of vehicle next year. I love my little 2005 honda civic hybrid and don't want to even think about attempting to sell it (it's well maintained under the hood but i let it run to moss cosmetically) but it's mostly useless in snow even with the finest chains that can fit the low profile clearance. Last time we had major accumulation i got high centered on snow drifts. Three times. And had to be pushed out by passerbys. As an 'essential employee' it would be nice to be able to get to work in my vehicle and not trust in utterly unreliable bus services or walking with a chronic injury. It would also be nice to be able to haul furniture and lumber. But that's something to ponder further another day. Now i need to go camp out in the bathroom for a bit, I fear last night's dinner is going make a reappearance.