Smonster- just to be clear, being consistently late does NOT make you a bad person. It might make you a chronically late person, but that's ok, and shockingly common. My mom is always late to everything. People tell her to be there an hour before anyone else, and sometimes it works out. Ok, one time I was with her so we actually showed up on time and turned out to be an hour early, which was annoying for me because it was a church function and i HATE going to church with her, but other than that it works pretty well. Except that now she knows the trick and is still late, but not AS late, only a few minutes. Can you trick yourself into thinking you need to always be an hour early for work? Sure you'll still know, but it might help with time budgetting. And again: being late isn't a reflection on your worth or inherent awesomeness. It's just time budgetting. Some people can't budget money and some can't budget time (and some both, which still doesn't make them bad people, just poor and late.) If it were really a huge problem someone would have been chiding you about it long ago, every day, likely also with glares.

eta: forgot to mention, everyone in my mom's life *adores* her, whenever she shows up.

Y'all are so awesome. Thank you. No time for proper responses right now, gotta get to work! Flea called, I'm up and dressed and walking Frankie, and I'm on track to leave by 6:15 which should get me there 25 minutes early.

Have a better than expected day, smonster. Also, what they all said.

My laptop ate a long post I had earlier, but I didn't have to to recreate it. Grumble. Hopefully more later.

Pix, I hope you are ok. I really don't like the sound of what you are experiencing and wish there was an easier answer than waiting until the meds come through the mail.

Here 14 minutes early. Of course, it's raining, so who knows how much we'll be able to work today… but it won't be my fault. I'm the first one here. My plan is to get up before flea calls, so I'm not training myself to rely on her phone calls.

Thanks for the reminders about stickers, I've used those before with some good results.

askye, my roommate's bedroom is right next to mine, so I don't think that will work. But thank you for sharing what works for you. It's all good info that gets me thinking.

erin, thank you. I have such a hard time separating my behavior from myself as a person.

I get up very early these days. Before 5am today, but can't trust myself to remember to call, and hate the phone, so thank flea for being able to do that. If I could somehow send waves of coffee aroma, or your favorite wake up smell your way I would surely do so.

I have a question on the Celexa thing. My sister arrived on Saturday to help me with my work overload as she has done for a couple months or so now, but she was a weepy mess of depression. She tells me her insurance company refuses to pay for the brand name, and the generic makes her throw up, and doesn't work, possibly because she can't keep it down. She has gone through this with a number of insurers as her company seems to switch often.

As is often the case with my sister, every single potential solution offered was rejected as impossible. I at least got her to agree to talk to the company's insurance agent as they should have an advocate that can deal with the insurance company on her behalf.

I don't even know what I am asking for. I just don't know how to be there for her. Particularly when she won't do anything to make her lot better, and hasn't for at least 40 years.

I know there was something else, but the drugs the neurologist has me on are not helpful in having working memory. I see him the 15th and hope to cut to at least a half if not try and go without again. Stupid brain.

1. smonster is AWESOME.

That above all needed to be stated.

2. flea is AWESOME.

again, really needs to be stated, because support in a tangible way is moving and thoughtful and more than many of us could do.

3. this community as a whole, AWESOME.

I hope we all realize that there are people here who will help in many different ways. I cannot imagine life without this space and you people.

I at least got her to agree to talk to the company's insurance agent as they should have an advocate that can deal with the insurance company on her behalf.

Her doctor's office should also be able to call/write a letter to the insurance stating that the brand name is medically necessary.

Y'all, I am doing freelance work for my old company (they never shut down; it's just that when they sold the monthly journals, the day-to-day operations changed drastically, but they still have textbooks that they occasionally need to update, and that is what I'm doing for them). They still have the old office space (for whatever reasons), and so I'm back in my old office, which is empty and weird as hell.

(I had to come in to the office because of a weird complicated thing with PDF files. I can't figure it out, so I can't explain it.)

weird. is it uncomfortable?

I've only worked at one place as a freelancer once I left, and I left that job on my own. One job I was fired from asked me about contracting for some work and I think I quoted them $100/hour plus expenses, so that never happened.