Gah - following the promotion, now I'm struggling with my own case of imposter syndrome. My workload has been light lately and despite a bunch of people who say they would love to have me help them, another solid project has yet to come through for me.

I have been invited to the Project Controls Summit next week. For my sector, I am the lowest level invitee. And then today I got asked to be on a panel for one part of the meeting. Both invitations should bolster my confidence in what I do, but I feel like an utter fake.

I'm tryign with twitter and now I'm caught in this reply and I'm over my head because 1) I can't figure out exactly the right way to reply and 2) I don't know how to counter anything they are saying.. grrr now I feel dumb...

I saw your replies, askye. You were doing great.

Thanks, I got in the reply chain to people who are anti ASAN and bringing up the finances and I don't know enough to counter it so I'm ignoring it.

Ugh. My thumb hurts like hell (7, verging on 8), and the soonest I'll be able to get pain meds is Friday night. I'm up to five Advil at a time now. (Basically, hand therapy person said to splint it for a while, and if it doesn't feel better, go back to rheumatologist, and that I'll probably need steroid injections in the joint. It's been getting worse, even with the splint, so I called the rheumatologist. After three days of phone calls, I find out that she's on leave, and the person covering for her says to contact my primary care doctor. My primary care doctor sucks, but I contacted her anyway, and I'm waiting for a reply. But meanwhile, since my rheumatologist usually prescribes pain meds, the other doctor in her office now needs to get that prescription for me, and he can't do it until Friday. But I've got a ridiculous day at work on Friday, so the latest that I could possibly pick up the prescription at the office would be noon, and they can't guarantee that it will be ready then -- even though "ready" just means that the doctor has printed it out and signed it. So, if I can't get it Friday, then it will be available for me on Monday, but I'm flying to Boston for Passover on Sunday, and won't be back until late Tuesday, so I won't get it until next Wednesday. And I am already literally crying from the pain.)

Hil, that really sucks, I hope that the doctor's office is able to get your medicine to you as soon as they can.

I'm sorry, Hil. That sucks.

I'm so sorry, Hil. I do hope that the PCP or someone comes through quickly with something for you.

Well, my primary care doctor says I can make an appointment with her, and she'll refer me to a specialist. (I don't know why I need an appointment just to get a referral, but whatever.)

Well, the soonest that the scheduling person could get me in was two weeks from now, but she agreed with me that that was too long, so she transferred my call to a different line, and she said the people there would be able to find a way to fit me in. There were no people there, just voicemail. So, I left a message. This is now four days of calling two different offices, and no appointment scheduled.