I got through the whole conference without drinking! Which I felt especially virtuous about after seeing some of my esteemed colleagues this morning.

sj, has your pain decreased noticibly with this diet?

Laura, glad you have a walking buddy.

I'm feeling much better today. I really should have just done different work stuff instead of banging my head against the wall with those estimates, I breezed right through them today.

So the woman who posted that meme yesterday posted about the number of deaths in Chicago in the last 24 hrs, and she and some other WoC are all, let's see how many comments *this* post gets. And she directly referred to a comment I had made about my emotional reaction to the meme. I just… honestly, I've done more to support black people and issues in my life than trans ones, if I'm being honest. In a perfect world I wouldn't need validation or care that I (and others who said it was transphobic) don't care about black people, but apparently I do. I need to let it go, and maybe just finally leave that group. A further irony is that these days I mostly only comment there if I see that a WoC has posted something that has a ton of comments, because I know shit is going down so I go in to support them.

I need to just keep doing what I'm doing and trust that the people in my life know that I'm doing my best.

Sorry for the excess drama in life, smonster. I've done a pretty good job of eliminating that kind of stress in my life. It has been a several year project, but realization that stress kills has made me make some real changes.

Speaking of stressful stuff, I went on a sick visit to a segment of the right wing family. I love them, but haven't seen them since before the election. Elderly Uncle has been immobilized with back issues and will likely have surgery next week, and Aunt has been out of work with fever and flu stuff for a few days, likely due to immunity hit from stress over her husband. We did the meals on wheels thing and brought chicken veggie and mushroom barley soups and a big fruit platter. Whole Foods is stupid expensive, but they have some really nice soups. Their son came down from Alabama to do the nursemaid thing. Anyway, we managed to get in and out with no political talk, just expressions of love.

Zoe and I did an early morning mile loop, and nearly melted. Got home and checked and see 91% humidity. Only 74F, but I'm talking melted here. Dog is lying on the tile floor panting.

Smonster, yes. I had a couple really bad days due to weather, but the daily pain, especially in my hands and neck disappeared after a week.

There is some pain today after the cider last night. Bah. Also, I hate living here. My inlaws never seem to be able to help when I need it. I need to get fasting blood work done Monday or Tuesday morning and I have no one to help with ltc.

sj I'm sorry you don't have help. We need to build teleportation technology.

So today is my third day of taking the mininmal dose of Vyvanse. Yesterday I got hyper and it bothered me (mostly my brain was annoying me).

Mom has n't been feeling well. Today I wasn't all that hungry but I realized I should eat. I did not want a sandwich. I went and looked at the ground beef I got on discount yesterday and realized that I really really needed to cook some and freeze it. Mom was going to make meatloaf but that seems out of the question.(I double checked though) and I was lik e"I will cook it and freeze it". Which morphed into me making spaghetti.

And then I put it up and stacked all the dishes by the sink. In the meantime my SIL's dog escaped and I saw her wandering by and so I walked her back up to her house (the dog) , chatted a bit and came home and picked up right where I left off. Well I turned off the burners and then turned them back on.

None of that felt like a big deal.

Which..is a pretty big deal.

That's great, askye.

sj I'm sorry you don't have help. We need to build teleportation technology.

Yeah, that would be awesome. I really need to look into get a sitter I can call when we need one who maybe also comes over a few hours a week so I can get stuff done. It just seems like too much to deal with at the moment.

Wow, askye, that sounds amazing. For real. I hope the meds keep doing you good!

Good for you askye.

Smonster, ugh. They really latched on to your comment in what to me is pretty clearly a deliberately obtuse way.