I had the house to myself and was revelling in that and just when I was ready to get online my Mom and nephew came over with my nephew's best friend and her mom and I had to go be social and it was loud and chaotic.

I'm also hungry and grumpy because we need to go grocery shopping but that means ... trying to navigate through 2 different ideas of how meal planning/meal ideas should be done (Mom's version is just buy stuff and figure it out, mine is have some recipes in mind and frozen dinners for back ups).

Also I joined this Asperger's women's group on FB it's a private group and it's been helpful but now there is a big debate over trigger warnings and I've unfollowed the group and thinking of leaving it because I'm not sure if I can remember to use trigger warnings and also I'm not realy sure how it would work if there is a comment with a triggering thing in a non triggering post.

currently there are 9 general topics that need trigger warnings or rather if anything falls under the general topics it needs a warning, besides the big stuff like abuse and rape there are posts with descriptions of medical procedures/related things, posts that include pictures of food, anything that mentions phobias --- I'm not sure if that means using the word with phobia in it or actually tlaking about something that can be a phobia.

It's stressing me out enough that it's not worth it.

Was at the doc - I do have ADD and have a prescription for some Adderall. Which I should have filled immediately because I just can't focus today and I have too much work to do.

Four of us went out line dancing last night. Kelly and I used to meet my friend Kimmie there every Thursday a couple of years ago, but we haven't been in yonks. It was a blast! I think I got in 10,000 steps just on the dance floor. My knees are annoyed with me, but I had not realized how much I needed to get out and just bust a move.

Good luck ND!!! How is the new space working out?

Suzi, how did you decide to get tested? What did your doc do?

I've been working, and need to go work out before hitting a baseball game

I have been having a horrible time focusing on school work. I think I've developed enough coping mechanisms that it isn't as much of an issue with school work.

When CJ was diagnosed and we were trying to find the right med for him, she had said that ADD/ADHD is always a challenge to diagnose, but when you take Adderall or the like, if you have ADD/ADHD it makes you focus. If you don't it makes you hyper/high.

One day when I was really struggling I tried one of his pills (I know, but no-no) and I had a better time focusing. So I called to get assessed.

The actual assessment was a fairly simple questionnaire I filled out in the office and she reviewed immediately. We agreed I don't need the extended release that is good for 12 hours. Instead what I'm getting is good for 4-6 hours/pill. We will see how it goes.

good luck Suzi I hope that it helps/

So my nephew's best friend and his mother came over. It was 2 very excited 8 year olds running around. There was a water balloon fight outside and then they went iside and played and Mom and his Mom and I chatted...while they yelled and carried on.

It was really hard for me to deal with on the heels of dealing with E almost constantly this week and E being loud and whiny and stuff like that.

Mom actually asked "Was today hard for you to handle" and I said yeah and that I was "really really really glad" E was going on vacation.

Which got me a retort of "That's mean!!"

Maybe I could have cut out a really but I don't hate my nephew but I've been less patient with him and more likely to snap at him as the week has gone on and I'm looking forward to this so I can get the space and not be frustrated nad overwhelmed.

I didn't think I said anything in a mean way, just relieved. I don't know how to react to this or handle it. But between this and Mom's "That's just WEIRD" reaction to seeing me stim I'm less inclined to talk to her about things.

I have tickets to a concert on Friday, and I'm just not sure I can handle it. It would mean being over an hour away from ltc, which I have never done and neither TCG or me being there for her bedtime. She is getting better about drinking milk from a sippy cup, but she always breast feeds at bed time. I realize that she is over a year old and I sound more than a bit pathetic. My anxiety levels are really high right now, and I have ltc's birthday party a week from today.

Oh I understand well, sj. If you and TCG are not ready then give away the tickets. If you can't enjoy yourself it doesn't make sense to go.

I really want to go, but I'm torn. TCG is fine either way. It's not "his" concert.

TCG is in the living room with ltc. I'm on the other side of the house. So how is it I have to be the one to tell him that she is hungry and/or needs a new diaper? Can he not hear her increasingly loud babbling?