Steph External validation is a wonderful thing. It's one of the big benefits I get from weekly therapy.

I saw my shrink, she lives elsewhere and is ending her contract with the health center in Oct so I'll see her one more time and then who ever they bring in. I'm thinking about looking for a new shrink but I don't think there are many choices where I live and going to the town where my therapist is ....it's tempting but it's more driving and then I'd be more likely to add additional doctors visits to the same trip and that's not a good thing.

Mom's going out of town over night tomorrow night for her birthday and I was thinking "okay so we're getting up and having breakfast and I have the whole day and I'm not leaving the house tomorrow or Sunday..." except I have group therapy. I partly want to skip it but I know that's not a good idea. It's only the second week but it's so tempting.

Now I have to go do my homework.

I'd tell your friend that it's nice of her to offer the shuttle is more convenient for you. Because it is.

Yeah, I'd just reiterate that she should plan to meet you there, then. That's what cellphones are for, if it's confusing.

I was feeling meh about going out tonight--I'm v tired, and my throat hurts a bit. Then I realized the opening ceremonies are on soon (stupid west coast tape delay!) so I think I will cuddle up on my couch and do that. No dancing, no movie in the park. Less exciting, but more my speed today.

Okay, I emailed a potential therapist, because my coping skills are gone. They are outsourced entirely to Ativan and denial, when I'm not just completely freaking out.

Wait, Tep, Ativan and denial aren't a plan? Damn it. Apparently, in my plan, we are planless.

My current plan is good and denial. There is a new therapist down the street. I should see if she takes my coverage and if I can arrange to have appointments when I know my mother is around for the baby.

Wait, Tep, Ativan and denial aren't a plan? Damn it.

Not even adding ice cream into the mix helped. Although it was nice to see Hil in the middle of the day (I helped with GISHWHES pictures).

I will be traveling home tomorrow, so we celebrated my birthday today. This trip was supposed to be a joint anniversary/60th birthday gift, so I wasn't expecting anything. My adorable dude surprised me tonight with a lovely Tiffany silver bracelet with a few freshwater pearls strung on it ( I think they call it "pearls by the yard"). Very classy and very pretty. The best part of it was how vulnerable and hopeful he looked after he gave to me, waiting to see if I liked it. OF COURSE I liked it.

Also, jesus christ I am going to be 60 tomorrow! WTF

Vacation! We arrived a couple of hours ago stopped and fed the baby at a restaurant because it was too early to check in. I had a duck taco and then we stopped at the bookstore. Now we're checked in.

Both adults failed to pack the sheet for ltc's pack and play. So she's very late for her nap now. Luckily they seem to have one here, which will hopefully work.

Well done, Scrappy, that's how you celebrate a birthday!

What's the one thing that is better than big time adulting yourself? When your kid adults! #2 son had accumulated enough time at work for vacation. So he made his plane reservation, rented a car, and went on vacation to Otter Lake by himself. And he brought home t-shirts for his mother, brother, and girlfriend. He's all growed up and stuff.