All she needs is to feel safe and loved. You got this. I don't know what else you think you are supposed to be doing, but I do know that all the best Moms I have known all felt like they were inadequate. So did I. I think I am finally over that. I kept them fed, clean, and safe, and they always knew they were loved. I'll declare it a win.
I'm just, uh, just feeling kinda... truthsome right now. And, uh... life's just too damn short for ifs and maybes.
Mal ,'Heart Of Gold'
Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Laura - Jul 07, 2016 4:23:46 pm PDT #25373 of 30002
Our wings are not tired.
sj - Jul 07, 2016 4:38:39 pm PDT #25374 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
I don't know. Read to her more. Hold her more? Hold her less? Is she playing by herself too much? Should I be actively trying to teach her things? Am I watching too much tv around her? Will my depression rub off on her? So much to worry about. I had a good cry earlier and then TCG came home and made dinner (which I also fee guilty about). My allergies are really bothering me, and I have a headache. Maybe I'll actually sleep tonight.
Dana - Jul 07, 2016 4:45:30 pm PDT #25375 of 30002
I'm terrifically busy with my ennui.
sj, the mere fact that you worry about those things shows how good a mother you are.
Laura - Jul 07, 2016 4:46:55 pm PDT #25376 of 30002
Our wings are not tired.
Oh sj, I promise you it would be surprising if you weren't suffering with these thoughts. It is natural, and no fun. You are a wonderful loving mom and your daughter and husband are blessed to have you in their lives.
sj - Jul 08, 2016 4:57:57 am PDT #25377 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
Today is not going well. ltc woke up cranky. A gallon of water launched itself off the counter when no one was in the room and spilled all over the slippery tile floor. It's a high pain day and a bad allergy day. It's probably going to rain, which would mean no farmers market. I really need to shower instead of nap while ltc sleeps, but I'm filled with the don't wannas.
askye - Jul 08, 2016 6:10:51 am PDT #25378 of 30002
Thrive to spite them
Can you take a really quick shower and then nap?
Also you are a great mother.
sj - Jul 08, 2016 2:45:50 pm PDT #25379 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
I'm sorry. I didn't mean to have a meltdown and flounce off. I ended up taking a nap anyway because there didn't feel like there was any other choice. As soon as I heard her start to stir, I jumped in the shower. She ended up going back to sleep when I didn't come in immediately. She needed the extra sleep anyway because she's teething and is a crank monster. Thessaly came over and brought me birthday prezzies, a Jane Austen coloring book and chocolate, because she's awesome like that. We went to a different farmers market and I bought some goodies. Now I'm home with what feels like the start of a migraine, and TCG made me a grilled cheese for dinner.
Laura - Jul 08, 2016 3:42:53 pm PDT #25380 of 30002
Our wings are not tired.
Oh, nice prezzies! And grilled cheese is always a win.
askye - Jul 08, 2016 5:23:54 pm PDT #25381 of 30002
Thrive to spite them
Nice prezzies!
You did not flounce off. You practiced self care.
sj - Jul 09, 2016 7:51:43 pm PDT #25382 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
My stomach has been not right on and off for weeks, which I firmly believe is affecting my mood. Tonight it is definitely not right and I could barely eat the delicious meal TCG made.