I know what you mean about feeling the shitty stuff catch up and pile on, Tep. There are only so many spoons to be had. Would it help to take a day off and just read or slounge?

Once I get through my editing tomorrow, I basically have the whole weekend -- well, not free, because there's a family shindig Sunday, but with no super pressing obligations. [Related sidenote: Hil, I'll message you tomorrow, because I'm about to go to bed.] [We also still need to see Civil War, BTW.]

Honestly, I'd still be overwhelmed with all of this even if my IBS weren't flaring, but it's just the straw that broke the camel's back. (Or, I don't know, colon.) It's not crippling pain, but it's constant, and I'm at the point where I don't even know what I can safely eat, because everything makes my stomach hurt. And because it's an inflammatory disease, it's been flaring for so long that my hands are swelling and all of my joints hurt. I know it's all related, so I'm not freaked out or anything, but I am entirely out of spoons and OVER IT.

Steph, Xander may have said it best when he said, "... you've got my support. Just think of me as... as your... uh, you know I'm searching for supportive things and I'm coming up all "bras"...."

All I can do is laugh at this point. A work thing is about to implode. It's not in any way my fault, but it is going to be my problem to deal with, and it looks like I'm fucking going to have to fucking work all fucking weekend to fix a problem that I didn't create.

Unexpected lunch with one of our besties who happens to be in the neighborhood! That is exactly what I needed, even though it doesn't lessen my workload.

I'm glad something is lifting your spirits, Steph.

I think a therapist is a good idea Steph.

Even if it's just short term to help cope because there has been a lot of shit going on and you need that support.

I really should be cleaning my apartment, but I'm not, and it's a mess, which means that, when my family comes to visit tomorrow, my mother and sister will keep giving me grief over it. At least I got the bathroom sort of clean, and the kitchen will look a lot better once I collect all the dirty dishes and put them in the dishwasher.

Steph, venting is always a good thing when stuff piles up. It;s what we are here for!

I don't make it in here often enough, but I want to hug you all and thank you for being here when I need you.

I hope today is a better day for all. I have been overwhelmed and just haven't been able to carve out time for catching up here, or anywhere on line. When finding the time adds stress rather than relieving it then I have to take a break.

We are in NY for a week with my SIL and a couple of her friends visiting. It is good in many ways. I have to focus on what I am doing more than what I am not doing.

We are at Stitch's christening.