Me too, Laura. I have a few gifts but not enough. The ones that have to be mailed really should go out today but they probably won't, so that means I'll be mailing stuff Monday at outrageous rates to get them there by Thursday.

I have ideas but either no money or time.

I can take Hartford off the list of calls. They denied the partial benefits claim. Because the meds manager didn't get the info and the case was closed it had to go under medical review and that review determined the wasn't sufficient reason under the policy. They are sending paperwork with all the details. But it probably would have been denied anyway.

I can appeal but I asked about the amount and it would probably be less than $2000. Because it was partial pay. I don't really want to appeal but there's apart of me that says if I don't and I need a similar claim in the future not appealing will be held against me.

And this is triggering all the anxieties of not being believed and that I'm seen as a faker or a fraud. Actually that I am a faker and if I just wasn't lazy and wanted to be okay more I would have been able to work.

Sorry to vent. Im glad I have an in tial appointment with a therapist relatively soon

Ugh askye, I hate that. It's the evil of the bureaucracy. Someone is just pushing through papers and sees this as a rote denial because of course the first recourse is deny every claim. For you, though, it's a trigger. I wish they could see that.

You are not a faker and you are not lazy

I talked to Dad and he pointed out that denial is the first thing Mom was more of course you are going to appeal.

Can't so anything until the paperwork gets here.

After I see the new doctors and get a sense of the support I'm going to look for a job. I keep trying to figure out if I need something low key or its just the anticipatory anxiety that makes every thing seem daunting But I went to town on my own got a slight idea for my brother gf.

I really need to get to a crafts store for something but Wal mart have what I need. So haVing lunch pokE aroud downtown mote then the library and post of and Wal mart

I'm getting my hair colored today for the first time in over a year and TCG is shopping with ltc. Hopefully she doesn't decide she needs to eat while I still have goop on my head.

After talking to some people and doing some research on our own, I think we're going to wait until we hit the 6 month mark to introduce solid foods. Hopefully our ped will understand.

Askye, I'm sorry you have to deal with that BS but it's just stupid bureaucracy. It has nothing to do with the legitimacy of your issues. I'm sorry they're making you feel that way.

It is up to you, not the pediatrician. I can't imagine that you will have any problem with him/her anyway. Lots of parents push them to start early and they may have been reacting to that.

Thanks, Laura. We don't go back until late February anyway and by then we'll have started on food.

Askye, I'm sorry you have to deal with that BS but it's just stupid bureaucracy. It has nothing to do with the legitimacy of your issues.

Echoing that, loudly. It isn't about you, it's just BS red tape. You are not faking anything.

I'm getting through the to-do list slowly. Just spent a while chatting with my BF, which helped my mental state a lot. I'm not going to get it all done, but as long as my hair is dyed before I go out tonight (it will be) and the toilet is clean before my sister comes over (it is now), everything else can just wait. Perfection is not achievable.

I'm no longer gray! Next time I'm going to have a bright red streak put in but I couldn't afford the extra expense today.

the toilet is clean before my sister comes over (it is now)

Ack, thanks for the reminder! Bleach must be deployed. (I'm kind of OTT about cleaning the toilet, because ick.)