It was the one you recommended

Dr. M? I've only seen her a few times, and I really like her. My mom LOVES her.

The referral isn't an insurance thing -- the connective tissue clinic will only see people with a referral from the primary care doctor.

Ah, got it.

I should go see my doctor about my antidepressant. I'm not sure if I need to switch to a new one (I'm on the highest dose) or just go off it. I originally went on it for anxiety, and my baseline anxiety went down at first, but has crept back up a little.

I have been really depressed for quite a while and I've determined it's got to be chemical. I'm tagging along with Tom to his psychopharm appointment tomorrow just to meet her, then I'll probably do intake and diagnosis.

I've been on this current medicine for close to 10 years now, so I figure it might be losing efficacy.

I did get a ride, from the friend who has to drive so much further. My blood count is very low in almost everything you want your blood to do, but I'm starting a week off this new chemo, so we'll find out how it bounces back. I do need a transfusion, so I got the blood work for that today and the transfusion is Saturday. Of course, if I didn't have to have a damn driver, I could have done the blood work after the procedure tomorrow, since it's right next door.

I'm not sure there's a chemical capable of overcoming the depressing features of my current life. (Please do not take that as meaning that you shouldn't be depressed when you life seems to be going swimmingly.)

Ugh Ginger

I wish I could do something more effective than sympathetic grunts

Dr. M? I've only seen her a few times, and I really like her. My mom LOVES her.

Yeah. The first one you recommended isn't taking new patients. I liked her well enough, though she seemed kind of rushed -- there are a couple of things that doctors always notice and point out when I go for physicals, and she didn't comment on any of them. That could have just been today, though, since I'm sure that taking my medical history and everything took a lot longer than she'd expected for someone my age.

I am still learning to cope...I have come a long way but it's not great all the time. In much shallower news of the kind that Buffistas can appreciate, my CIL, formerly known as Arizona Bridge to Independent living or ABIL is now going to start calling it self "Ability360" because it sounds more positive and dynamic. I think it sounds like either a sports drink that's "xtreme" or a social program on Veep that causes a shitstorm when Selina doesn't say the implied exclamation point each time. I hate it, and I'm going to an event there this weekend and right now I just want to say "Oh, honey, no!" like Karen Walker.

Rolling my eyes in sympathy, erika.

Listening to TCG try to negotiate with ltc to get her into her pjs and sleep sack is quite possibly the cutest thing ever.

Aw, sj, that sounds totally adorable.

erika, the amount of bullshit you put up with is stunning. God.

I'm still stunned by it myself.

Can't sleep. Moving is eating my brain. We're moving to a much smaller place, which is forcing me to get rid of a lot of stuff. That's good, buț it's a lot to do very quickly. My sister îs coming to help, which will also be good. I've been working so much that I haven't been able to carve out time to go to yoga, and my pain is ramped up; that does not help the insomnia.

Meh. I thought I had more but I'm boring myself.