Had a bit of a rough time yesterday. Mom's getting depressed in the rehab and just wants to come home. It's so distressing when she asks me to just take her home and I have to keep telling her it's not safe yet. Just tears me up. I called a home health care place and got her set up for an assessment tomorrow afternoon. I've got the names of a few places, but I think I'm going to need a bit of a break before talking with the others. And I have the website to apply for Paid Family Leave open in another window, but I need a few minutes before I wade back in and start trying to deal with that. Depending on how on-the-ball this home health place is, and when Mom gets discharged, I may not even need to take much leave. The guy I spoke with certainly made it sound like they could manage it this week. Though I might like to have a few days just to see how things go at first anyway.
I went to church for the first time in a while yesterday with my BFF & her DH. In time for a message about Job and trusting in God even when things are really hard. So clearly (to me) I was supposed to be there. But in addition to the message being pointed at me, I also met with the pastor for a few minutes after the service and he not only prayed with/for me, but also gave some very solid suggestions and the offer of actual help from people of the church. So it was nice to be reminded of resources that are available, even if what should be the first line (husband, family) isn't.
I also finally pulled the trigger and got a smart phone - the hinge of my flip phone is cracked and I just couldn't risk being without a phone right now when I'm the point man for my mom. I not only went from a flip phone to a smart phone, but also changed carriers, so I was there for HOURS. But my BFF surprised me by coming along, so it was more fun, and she was asking all these questions that I wouldn't have thought of, so very helpful. Now I'm the proud owner of a Samsung S6 - I was just going to get the S5, but I let myself be talked into the newest and neatest. My friends are excited because I finally have a texting plan. First app downloaded (after Kindle, of course)? The Zippo lighter. I loves it. It's the small things right now, y'know?
Cheese? They clearly are not real clear on "vegan". Good grief.
There was also some pasta salad that I'm sure wasn't vegan, which I didn't eat. I did manage to grab a bag of chips before they were all gone, though. At least cheese on a sandwich is easy enough to remove. (I probably wouldn't eat a sandwich if there had been meat on it and I took it off, but I'm OK doing that with cheese, as long as it's just slices and not like goat cheese or something where it would be impossible to get it all off. I really have no basis in logic for this. I also generally don't ask about the ingredients in the bread in stuff like this -- when I buy bread for myself, I make sure it's vegan, but if I'm served something in a situation where there's not a good way to look at the bread ingredients, I just eat it, if there's nothing else to eat. If I were a bit more settled in and organized, I would have brought lunch from home, but my kitchen isn't really usable yet.)
I've been lurking but I realized it's been ages since I've posted.
My company is in a huge growth phase, which is awesome, I'm up to 4 full time employees now, plus a lot of season over hire. Right now it just means that I'm swamped, and stressed, and trying to keep a lot of balls in the air.
I feel like I talk to all of you all the time, but really I've been horribly one sided and just reading and not posting.
I feel like I talk to all of you all the time, but really I've been horribly one sided and just reading and not posting.
Ditto.
With an added side of feeling like a fair-weather friend because now that I finally am posting a little more, it's because I'm struggling and need the support of friends even more than ever. Though I do try to be supportive too.
But I suppose we all have our ebbs and flows.
I'm trying to wake up progressively earlier each day, so that I'll be ready for when classes start next week, because my first class is at 8 AM. I don't like mornings.
Y'all know there isn't any minimum posting requirement, right? We are Buffistas, near and far, ebbing and flowing, present and distant. You aren't prodigals humbly returning after a rebellious departure. You belong here now as always, because you are (not were) Buffistas. All times are now.
Or is that Buffistae?
Anyway, I for one am always glad to see anyone posting. I know I don't always have the wherewithal to post as much as I'd like. There are plenty of times when I send out the best love and ~ma I can, silently, without being able to put fingers to keys. As far as I can tell, no one gives me the side eye for not always being able to articulate everything.
I had a big long post earlier which is probably still sitting on my computer, but I was interrupted by a suddenly hungry baby and never got back to my computer. waves
