I had a stuffed Opus the Penguin for years after high school. He carried a red, heart-shaped pillow that said "Penguin Lust."

I reschedule a non-urgent doctors appointment that was supposed to be tomorrow for next week, and when asked the reason I resisted saying that I don't have enough spoons to go to four doctors appointments in one week.

I need to reschedule an appointment I canceled for that reason.

That's why I rescheduled my doctors appointment last week. Now I need to call them tomorrow about my ear which is really bothering me. I was having an intermentint stabbing pain (that would go away for a few days) but now it's a constant pressure and weird feeling. Plus when I press on my ear it hurts. So I'm thinking ear infection.

I'm dreading calling tomorrow because 1)my anxiety and stuff tells me they won't believe me, 2 )I rescheduled the appointment and my anxiety and stuff tells me that they will hold that agianst me and 3)I'm seeing my therapist and I'm just dreading that they'll say the only time they can see me is during or close to that time and then give me problems.

Rationally I know they won't but it's just anxiety and the working assumption is medical stuff/being sick is a trigger for me for the PTSD stuff. (which is the - they won't believe me and also I'll be chastised for not being compliant).

Stupid brain.

My stupid brain has done that to me too, but over the years I've come to realize that people don't generally give other people a second thought. For 1), the scheduling person will find an appointment time and then forget about it and for 2) they probably don't remember you rescheduled.

I do wish more scheduling could be done online.

What Ginger said. The only thing the scheduling person today seemed to care about was the fact that I didn't need an appointment this week, which made her happy.

Ugh, I have a uti. Of course I can't sleep and of course I had planned to drive up to Baton Rouge tomorrow.

That's rough, Nora. I hope you feel better and get some rest.

My stupid brain has done that to me too, but over the years I've come to realize that people don't generally give other people a second thought. For 1), the scheduling person will find an appointment time and then forget about it and for 2) they probably don't remember you rescheduled.

What Ginger Said. The list of things that were big in my brain that were non-existent to the rest of the world is too long. I think maybe I have finally figured that out, although it took long enough.

Ugh on the uti, Nora. I hope you are able to flood it out and make your trip.

Feel better, Nora.