askye, that doesn't seem like a step back to me at all. And I hate effexor more than any antidepressant I was ever on, and the psychiatrist I was on refuse to listen to me about how miserable it made me.

I just have a really long list of meds that either I stopped taking becuase they made me feel too good (ie hypomanic) or they had side effects and I can't remember which ones are which unless the side effects are really major.

Also I've been really short tempered and irritable especially being out in public. I think my therapist would say that it's because I'm isolating but I'm even like that in Second Life. I don't want to be around people because they are too loud or annoying /chaotic. Which I think is the agoraphobia kicking in. Or just my anti social behaviors.

I'm scared about monday but at least i'll have stuff to keep me busy.

askye, I don't know what dose of Lamictal your doctor has you on, but I've found it very effective for me. I'm on a fairly high dose with very few side effects. I think I may have a few more migraines than is normal for me, but that's about it. I have anger issues, too, and I've found the Lamictal very helpful in ameliorating that.

I just wanted to say, askye, it sounds to me like you're doing great, and taking really excellent proactive steps.

I wouldn't worry too much about the irritability. You've got some pretty big transitions going on, especially when you're dealing with meds shifts, and that may settle as well. Keep on checking I here, because it's really good to hear from you how things are going.

I need to remember that taking my PRN doses of klonopin is not a failure but a skillful thing. I feel so much better now that I have. I mean I want to use skills to handle the anxiety but I can't do that when I'm too anxious.

Sail - on the 15th I'll bump up to 150 mg.

Remembering to take a medication that helps you is a skill. Following through and taking that medication is a skill. Not the ONLY skills, but don't fool yourself; some people refuse to take medication and they suffer for it. Taking it IS a skill.

Well it's PRN which I hate because i'm so bad at deciding when I need to take it. Plus I still feel sleepy and then I don't want to feel more sleepy.

Well it's PRN which I hate because i'm so bad at deciding when I need to take it.

Yeah, but I still maintain that recognizing when to take it is a skill, which means it's something you'll improve, and you won't be so bad at deciding when you need to take it.

Remembering to take a medication that helps you is a skill. Following through and taking that medication is a skill. Not the ONLY skills, but don't fool yourself; some people refuse to take medication and they suffer for it. Taking it IS a skill.

OMG yes. Also extra bad when the thing you need the med for steps you from taking it--Saturday I felt like ASS all afternoon. Headache, not at all hungry, couldn't stand light...blamed it on too much sun, took Otc painkiller, took a nap, nothing worked...finally remembered I have migraine meds. For when I have migraines. Duh?!? 90 minutes later it was like a miracle had occurred. I was so much better. Sigh.

I'm fine taking medicine twice a day. I'm terrible at remembering to take something in the afternoon. I need to set up some kind of alarm. I found out Monday what happens when I miss a dose of the drug I take for neuropathy. It suppresses nerve impulses and apparently there's a rebound effect that makes every nerve in cuts, bruises and any other nerve that had ever thought about causing pain to go sproing.

I was on Effexor for a few weeks. Then I found myself thinking about irritating people, "I could take her out." Thinking about murder seemed like a really unfortunate side effect.