Is there something soothing you can listen to, sj? I sometimes listen to ASMR videos on youtube when I'm having trouble falling asleep. Also, listening to yoga podcasts can be really relaxing to me. I like this lady a lot:

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{{sj}} I loved smonster's mention of naming the anxiety. It appealed to me since living in a named storm area it reminds me that they don't last long and are over. And I really like storms, so there is that.

How many infusions do you need to get?

I'm sorry, Connie. I didn't mean to sound ungrateful for the advice.

My dear, you are in a state of near-endless frustration with your condition. I understand.

Gut~ma for ND and stress~ma for sj! May all be well with all Buffistas, on this unaccountably sucky Monday.

I've calmed down enough to make it to my appointment. The first IV didn't take, but the second one seems to be working.

Yay, cooperative IVs!

I'm home from the ER. 7mm Kidney stone, so that's fun. Followup with urologist to happen soon.

Ouch, ND. If you wanted to take some time off we could have given you plenty of better options to consider.

Sometimes I feel badly about, like, being the World's Oldest Intern(and I'm not even that, really, because I don't get class credit) but you know, I do lots of shit that nobody else likes and with a smile, most of the time. I'm not really ready for anything else, exactly,except I wish that a few of my stories got a little attention, but sometimes I think "I'm forty-one years old and started off Cheating Death(TM) and whatever. Was it all so I could look up phone numbers in Brattleboro, Vermont?"(Although I don't mind doing that, and I'm old enough to appreciate that it would be a beast of a job if I had to do it Joan and Betty style, without the internet, but still.)

7mm Kidney stone, so that's fun

Yowza. Hubby had a big one once that took lithotripsy to get rid of. Once he changed from hard, city water to bottled water, his incidence of kidney stones went way down.